The Richardsons

Video #54

That's when I realized something later that night. I woke up and went to my balcony to think. The air was cold and it was snowing very lightly. I am my own person and I do deserve to have my own story and be my own main character.

You see, the problem that I always had since I was a child was being the one that was always foreshadowed and the one that was always forgotten. Even in class, while I followed the exact directions, the teacher would choose Ashley Kneedler over me simply because she had more presence and confidence.

But, how do I build up my confidence? I'm always insecure about everything. And I mean everything.

Even when some say I could the smartest in my class, I wouldn't believe them because I don't think that is me. Why would I be chosen to be the valedictorian of the Class of 2022? It's of course the way that I am. I am way more selfless and if you never knew my life, you could mix me up with a girl that lives in poverty.

I am a lot more humble than you think I am and even my parents think my humbleness is a little extreme. I never took anything extra and only took what I needed. I never treated myself to anything. I was always good with money and things like that, but because I knew from the moment that I was born that I was going to take over my father's company. And so, I mentally trained myself, and was applauded as being a natural genius.

But of course, not all good things are good.

Not only that, but kids my age would call me weird and beat me up because I was smarter than them. Growing up with kids that were somewhat like me I'm terms of money and with Alexa made me more humble than I was before. Even when I was a baby, I would always  play with just one toy the whole day, and that's how I was. Because I only took what I needed, they accused Alexa and I that we were actually from a poor family attending on a scholarship. And I remember that day, when Alexa screamed in my face and said that I was the reason why I was embarrassing her and I was making her look poor. For a while, I cried.

I never cried in front of my parents or Alexa, because if Alexa saw, than she would call me weak and puny, and mom and dad would stop at nothing and probably tape whoever was bullying me mouths shut.

The last thing I would ever want to do is disappoint anybody. When I see some people publicly embarrassing their family image, I feel really bad. But, I know that not all kids have loving parents. I also knew that from a young age that everybody was different. Even at the rich private elementary school, the poorest people were lower middle class.

It's just that I know that I have a lot on my shoulders and I can get too invested in my work that I forget about prioritizing  myself first. You could say I'm a workaholic, just like my parents. While nobody knows where Alexa is from. But, Alexa seems to be faking everything about her life and I have heard, smelt, and seen proof.

What I'm saying is that my life might not be the more interesting, but I am my own character. And what matters is that I have a mix of work and a mix of personality and play in my life.

Because in this world, there is only one you and in this world, there is only one Katherine Ruby Richardsons from New Bedford.