The Richardsons

Video #79

I could hear sobbing from my bedroom the next night. It was unbearably loud, not even headphones would be able to stop the noise.

Ok, Alexa can have her major depressive periods, but this is her first break up, and as you can tell, she is not hanging in there.

It's bad that she found this out right now, but if she didn't find out any sooner, then she would be possibly even worse. If we found out sooner, that would be even better.

I heard the usual: crying,  anger, maybe an item or two being broken or thrown around the room, but it wasn't until later in the night that I smelt the smell of smoke from the backyard and I had to go investigate.

The first thing that I hear is manic laughter, like a witch brewing a cauldron, only it sounded like the sound of tears was there too. It definitely sounded out of place, and I made sure to keep my footsteps quiet. Yes, I am majorly afraid, but what could happen?

That's when the smell of smoke starts getting stronger and stronger and stronger and stronger and that's when I see fire.

Alexa is just standing there, in the dark with a lighter in one hand and her prom dress in another, and the dress was on fire.

I was in shock. The prom dress was custom made and worth a whole lot of money, the fact that Alexa was burning it made me a little bit angry inside.

Alexa was truly going insane. The laughter, the fire, the lack of fear with the fire, it was something just straight out of a horror movie.

I stepped on a branch and that's when she found me. I saw her crazy, sleep deprived eyes that were bloodshot with tears. She really was in pain, the manic and depressive side seemed to have kicked in at the same time.

"What are you doing?"

She just looked at me and started laughing. It sounded like a horror clown and she was twitching like crazy.

And then, suddenly, she turns depressive.

" he was the only thing that got me through high school and I thought that he was maybe the one for me. But I guess not. All good things must come to an end. Why didn't I noticed the red flags earlier? why don't I know what to do with myself anymore? why why why why why why why why why why why?"

She let go of the burning dress and it was scattered on the floor.

"Word of advice from your older sister; never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever EVER dedicate your entire existence to one person. Because you know what? They will use you to their advantage. Chance used me for personal gain, and I let him walk all over me. I let him use me like he was the puppeteer."

" not like anybody would fall in love with you because you're a smelly loser." Alexa suddenly snapped back to her old self in such a scary amount of time.

That's when Alexa started to leave and I was just standing there.

" The fact is nobody told me. Nobody let me know that everything I loved and had was in jeopardy. Do you know why? Jess is right. Chances right. I'm pathetic. I'm spoiled, I miss piece of that material that nobody wants because I only am seen as a stereotype and not what I  really am. Who am I even? What's the point? now they lost everything that made me, me."

" you know it's not always easy being somebody that or not. It's not easy trying to be this person that I don't expect you to be but when you can't be in them, you fall apart. Alexa, I know he never had the best relationships but, I just want you to know that Sister loves you and is always by your side even if it might not seem like it and you push me away and run you over and hurt me. I know you mean well, that's why I would never hate you. You always have me. Remember what mom always taught us and dad to the family always matters." I finally said.

"You really still love me even after all of these years?" She looked at me.

"Of course."

And that's when she ran to me and started hugging me.

" i'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry."