Brain Talk

Lace~I'm Actually Happy For Once?

Hello beautiful people.

So u guys know I always, always, always have something to rant or whine about but guess what?

Today's update is just to spread my new found happiness.

So I usually don't ever stick to anything or keep my resolutions but I have been so I've exercised a lot more (Monday, Thursday, And Saturday I go to Zumba. The rest of the week I run and do different stuff) although I don't particularly like having gym class, I know it's good for me. I drink, at the minimum, two bottles of water a day which is equal to four cups (16 oz bottles).

I've been trying a lot of new and exciting things. I've started watercolor painting and new foods and different projects with my church and I can honestly say I'm happier.

I've gotten rid of the 'poison' in my life as I call it. I stopped talking to people I realized I didn't need in my life to be happy. I sat back and asked myself, why I was still talking to them if they only brought me down? So I made a bold decision to place them out of my life. And the thing is, it didn't feel as bad as I thought it would.

I always felt like I had to be a certain kind of pretty or smart. I dont. I stopped comparing myself to others and started comparing who I am now to who I was before.

I'm finally happy with my life. All is good. God is good and loves me more than words can describe.

So I am doing something huge for myself later this year.

When I reach my goal weight/healthiness, my mother and I agreed to go on a shopping spree and get total head to toe, inside out makeovers. I already have a new hair style and color picked out but I'm waiting until I can see myself all put together.

And I have some great news!!!!!! It's been over a year since I started going to therapy for depression and anxiety and well my therapist is saying I'm doing much better and if I felt that way too, I can be done with therapy!

This is a major improvement for me.

Not to mention, I used to sit on here all day writing for my books and reading. But I've been learning how to get out in to the world and be more outgoing and now I'm so busy that I forget to update!

So go back to one of my first brain talk updates and read it. Compare it to this one and u can probably tell that I'm much happier now that I've learned much more about myself and people around me.

One last reminder.

No one is perfect. Only one person has ever been perfect and that's Jesus. But we, as humans and sinners, can't ever be perfect and can't ever live up to the standards people set for us. If you get a bad grade, it's ok. Once in a while I think it's healthy to slack off for a moment. But not for a long time! We all just need a minute of peace and relaxation but then we gotta keep going! I know it's overused and typical but you only live once. Make sure you let the world know who has your heart and who runs your life.

Once you figure out that perfection is unattainable, love is to be used fearlessly, and life is to be lived as if every second is your last, then you can be happy.

So there's some happiness and updates on my life!

I hope you all have wonderful blessed and amazing weeks!

I hope you all have learned something from this and maybe decided to look at your life and strive for happiness.

Love, Faith, And Peace,

~L