Perfect in Bad BOOK 1

Chapter 24

Chapter 24

Matthew's POV

When I returned, I carefully pushed the door open just a little. I froze. I saw Kuya and Jea-so close to each other, kissing. My knees went weak. I thought I had moved on, but I guess I was wrong. Masakit parin.

I slowly closed the door and stepped out of the hospital. My whole body was shaking when I got into the car.

"Ang gago ko! Hindi ko siya dapat pinakawalan! Ang tanga-tanga mo, Matthew!"

I kept smashing the steering wheel, pouring every ounce of anger and disappointment at myself into it.

Tangina! Ang sakit. Parang sinasaksak ang puso ko ng kutsilyo. Sa sobrang sakit!

Namalayan ko na lang, bumabagsak na ang mga luha ko-mga luhang matagal ko nang pinipigilan.

"Why did I let her go? Yeah... because of Kuya."

I let go of the girl I've wanted for so long... all because of my brother. I wish I had confessed to her sooner. I wish I had told her how I felt earlier. I wish things hadn't turned out like this.

Pinusan ko ang luha ko. Napangiti ako ng pilit sa sarili ko.

Kahit sandali lang ang pagiging magkasintahan namin naramdaman ko din ang pagmamahal niya.

And I can't bear the thought of keeping her in a relationship if she's not happy anymore.

Hindi ko sinisi si Jea kung bakit mabilis niyang nagustuhan si Kuya.

Pero sa isang banda, Masaya parin ako kasi alam kong, nasa tamang tao siya, at kaya siyang protektahan ng buong puso.

I slumped over the steering wheel, burying my face, completely overwhelmed.

Napaangat ako ng mukha nang may kumatok sa bintana ng kotse ko. Nakita ko ang dilim ng mukha ni kuya. Bakit siya nandito?

It's sad to think... we're not even that close to each other yet, and we both love the same girl.
Yeah, I still love her. And I don't think that's ever going to change.

Binuksan ko ang pinto ng kotse at lumabas.

"Why, Kuya?" I forced a smile.
He didn't answer me right away. He just studied my reaction first.

"Your personality's terrible. Getting all frustrated and pounding the steering wheel? Since Jea's not here... you can forget the 'gentle Matthew''act," he said, grinning wickedly.

He's seriously good at pissing people off. Bakit ganito ang niluwal ni Mommy?

"Ano bang sinasabi mo?" mahinahon kong tanong.

"I said drop the act. Alam kong may galit ka sa'kin.." He whisper in my ears.

"Nasasaktan ka ba? Napansin ko bumalik ka kanina."

Shit!

"Yon ba? May nakalimutan lang kasi akong sabihin kay Jea." tumawa ako ng pilit.

Bakit hindi ko nakikita ang galit sa mga mata nya?

"You want to punched me? Go ahead." He smirked.

"Hindi kita maiintindihan.." naguguluhan kong tanong.

Naiintindihan ko, alam ko kung ano ang gusto niyang iparating.

He grinned devilishly. "Masakit? Because I 'took' her from you? If you're really mad... go ahead, hit me."

I didn't even know why I suddenly punched him so hard. He fell onto the street. He got up immediately, wearing that devilish grin of his. Damn it!

Tapos, nakita ko na nasugatan siya sa gilid ng kamay niya, dahil sa lakas ng pagkakatumba.