Without You

Chapter 49

Ashton pov

It's been about 5 days since I talked to Blake and I haven't heard anything I text Haze occasionally to check up on her but he's vague the most I've gotten out of him is that she talked to Serina but he won't tell me more says that he thinks it's better if I talk to Blake myself. I plan on talking to her but I don't know how to. I mean she talked to Serina so she heard what happened from someone else but I don't know if she believed it honestly if she didn't I don't think there is any fixing this.

"Bro you need to get up" Trevor says

"what's the point"

"The point is that you barely have left that bed in 4 days the formals tonight she's gonna be there and you need to look unbothered"

"But I am bothered"

"well you can feel it but don't look it now get up"

"fine" I say getting out of bed I head to the bathroom to take a shower looking at myself in the mirror before getting in man Trevor was right I do look rough I think to myself running my hands through my greasy hair and over the stubble on my face I get in the shower and scrub myself head to toe I get out and shave my face when done I look back in the mirror. Seeing the man I knew the man before all this happened as thoughts start to cloud my mind I walk out of the bathroom diapering them and get dressed

"I'm going for a walk" I tell Trevor closing the door behind me

When I get outside I feel the sun on my face. The feeling brings back memories I can't stand to have replayed in my mind. I fight my urge to go back inside and curl up in my bed. I continue to walk not having a destination just letting the universe guide me the growling of my stomach catching my attention I head to the nearest food destination. I get in line and wait as I wait a loud voice catches nearly the whole cafes attention

"do we have a problem" a familiar voice says I turn and see Blake making my way over to her I see who her question was directed at a group of girls

"We were just wondering why Ashton would pick someone like you" one girl says infuriating me why wouldn't I choose Blake is a better question

"what's that supposed to mean"

"Just that he's him and your well a nobody" one girl says to Blake and looking towards me

not being able to keep quiet any longer I say "Maybe it was because she has substance something you're clearly lacking" my actions hitting me as the last word left my mouth and I freeze I look down at Blake seeing her slowly turn and look at me when her eyes hit mine something comes alive in me and in kiss her the taste of her lips satisfying my cravings. When I pull back she hurries away from me out of the cafe as I see the back of her leave my view a bit of guilt sets in and I rush after her

"Blake wait" I yell at her but she doesn't so I pick up the pace and catch up to her "I'm sorry about what happened in there" I say

"your sorry that you kissed me wow that's a first"

"I a I" I can't think of anything because she was right and I wasn't really sorry that I kissed her either

"you didn't have to do that why did you do that" she asks

"I did it because I wanted to" I pause because I want that to be the end of my statement but I also knew that's not what she wanted to hear right now "show those girls make them jealous"

"why would they be jealous like they said I'm a nobody" I get in front of her and stop so she has to do the same

"look at me Blake"

"I am" she says

"in my eyes" I tell her "you are not a nobody"

"maybe to you but"

I cut her off "Blake people in California know who you are big big executives in major companies know who you are so no as much as you may want to be a nobody you Blake Marie Stone are a somebody" I say she doesn't respond but she does take a step towards me then lifting up and kisses me catching me off guard I lean into her holding her head to me so she can't pull away feeling her hair intertwine with my fingers I melt silently hoping that this is not a dream because it feels like one she starts lowering back down and I let her go she looks at me one last time and walks off

"I'll see you later" I yell after her she doesn't say anything  just still continues walking I head off in my own direction back to Trevor to tell him what had just happened when I enter my dorm it's not just Trevor anymore Cole Bret and Josh are there to

"bro what are you doing here" I ask josh my overjoy turning into a mild panic at the thought of him seeing what just went down between me and his sister

"I was in town for work thought I'd stop by sorry I didn't call"

"uh, no worries bro just surprised to see you that's all. Boys this is Josh Blake's brother" I say shooting all of them a don't say a fucking thing look then suddenly *ding* *ding* *ding* *ding* all four of our phones go off with notifications.

Cole is the first to take out his phone and look "oh dude" then Bret "good for you" then Trevor "guys shut up" I lastly look disher posted has something oh no this can't be out of all days today?

I look at Josh he looks confused "what is it?" he asks

"nothing just some stupid gossip site" I tell him

"they post about you? Oh I have to see this" he says "what's it called?" he asks the guys

"disher" Bret says

Now I'm full-on panicking Josh is going to open the site and front cover see me and his sister kissing something I was forbidden from doing since six years old Josh turns to me and I brace myself to get yelled at

"dude you had a girlfriend oh I have to meet the dumbass who dated you" he says continuing to scroll I see his eyes bulge as they do he doesn't speak

"I'm leaving" he finally says bolting out of the room

I look at the guys around me "fucking dumbass" I say to Bret then bolting after josh

I catch up with him outside "josh stop" I yell and he does

"How could you" he says to me

"I wanted to tell you I just didn't know how to tell you"

"I thought you were my friend" he says

"I am"

"well non of my friends would date my sister"

"look Josh do you want me to be miserable for the rest of my life or date your sister"

"neither"

"well, that's not an option. Do you think I wanted to fall for my best friend's sister because I didn't. But I can't help that I'm in love with her I just am" Josh falls silent "look you don't have to be okay with it but just so you know I think she feels the same way"

Josh doesn't say anything he just walks away getting in his car he drives away as I watch him I hope, pray, believe that he'll come around eventually