Without You

Chapter 17

Ashton's pov

After yesterday's fight and awkward dinner convo I feel on uneven ground with Blake I mean I said I LOVE YOU then nothing what kind of idiot am i. the kind that's hopeless in love with his best friends sister and then treats her so she thinks I just wanna fuck that's the kind I am. It was weird last night because Blake made it very clear she didn't want me to touch her anymore for the first time in forever I slept in my own bed alone. It was cold. I lay awake in bed staring up at the ceiling for a good while I finally hear her shower going I debate whether I should go in there and talk to her I finally launch myself out of bed and head towards her door I open it and enter her room I hear the water going and the faint sound of music I sit myself on her bed waiting for her to get out scrolling on Instagram. I hear her from the bathroom singing her heart out it's adorable

 "you need me to feed your ego But you don't need me seems like you need hoes'' she sings I feel as if that's supposed to be directed at me 

she goes on "stay out my face, stay out my way don't need a man, I just need my space" did I really hurt her 

"why you gotta play so stupid? Hell no, I didn't wanna do this But I had to cut you off Do not call me back" FUCK 

"I wish I would've saw this coming You're so full of shit And I'm so through with it" that was 100% directed at me I can't belive this is how she feels I fucked up major MY girl is hurt and it's because of me I'm such a dumbass I hear the water stop so I get up off the bed and approach the bathroom door I knock a little but she doesn't respond I slowly open the door nothing I haven't seen or felt before I see her standing in the mirror wrapped in a towel she wipes the steam from the mirror to look in when she does her eyes shoot to me she turns and looks me in the eyes I froze everything I came here to say poofed away as soon as her hazel eyes met mine so I said the first thing that came to mind like an idiot

 "you know you make it real hard to stay away" stupid 

"I don't think so I think you make it hard for yourself by staring and walking in while I'm showering" she says she not wrong 

"well how can I not stare have you seen yourself" I say

 "ugh it's not hard I don't stare at you"

 "that's because you don't see me like I see you" I say I think it was my attempt at an I'm sorry I love you but a fail 

"whatever Ashton just get out so I can change" she says pushing past me into her room 

"okay whatever you want darling" I say I know she likes it 

"don't call me that" she says 

"you didn't mind when I called you that the other day" I say

 "ugh that's different I'm over it now" 

"how's it different"

 "momentary lapse of judgment" she says this stings like a lot I put my hands over my heart and make an I'm hurt face

 "ow Blake ow" I say 

"shut up and get out" she says pointing towards the door I leave closing the door behind me I head down the stairs to the kitchen 

"Hey everyone" 

"hey ash" they all say

 "do you know if aks up yet honey" Nicole asks 

"yeah she is I heard her on the way down" not a complete lie I walk over and take a seat next to Maria at the counter 

"uncle ash" 

"yes dear" 

"have you ever seen a shark"

 "you know what Maria I don't think I have" 

"well I heard that their really big and scary and can eat you *chomp *chomp *chomp"

 "well then we should avoid them shouldn't we"

 "yeah" she says with a big smile on her face

 "morning familia" Blake says as she enters

 "well someone's chipper today" caroline says 

"Morning honey" Nicole says 

"yes I am I slept very well last night my bed just felt bigger it was great" she says looking at me did she not like sleeping alone either 

"well that's great I'm glad you slept well" I say trying to get under her skin a little bit 

"ak you realize that it's noon and no longer morning right" my mom says that was a bit bitchy now wasn't it 

"yes Heather I do realize that" Blake snaps back god I love her she makes her way to the fridge to get something to eat she pulls out a cupcake THE cupcake one of the cupcakes that we smothered all over each other just a day ago she turns around and looks at me as she takes a bite I stare at her mouth wishing it was me she was tasting I get up off my chair and walk towards her I reach behind her into the fridge and grab a cupcake of my own I look her dead in the eyes as I take a bite 

"These taste even better than I remember" I say