Without You

Chapter 77

Blake pov

I sit in the hospital room in a chair that I pulled next to the bed he still hasn't woken up it's been three days I haven't left his side for a second of them I start to yawn

"Blake how about you go home and get some proper rest maybe take a shower" my mom says

"no I can't leave him when he wakes up I need to be here"

"yes I understand but you need to care about yourself to"

"im not leaving mom" I say to her more hostile than I meant to

"you know when he wakes up he's not going to want to wear that gown" she says "I think he much prefer you pick out his clothes than either me or heather"

"I'll go get him something I'll be right back, call me if he starts to wake up"

"Okay honey" she says hugging me before I leave

"Everything will be fine" she says

"you don't know that mom" I say then leaving

I drive home when I open the door I'm meant by caroline and Josh "how is he? Is he awake?" Josh asks me "nothings changed" I say

"then why are you here?" he asks me

"Mom begged me to leave so I'm getting him clothes"

"maybe take a shower to" he says caroline hits his arm "what she needs one"

"josh" she says scolding him

I walk upstairs to his room as I grab his clothes I notice that I do have a slight stench maybe they're right I do need a shower I grab one of his towels and start his shower getting in I think about him I wonder if he knows what's going on I wonder if he's wake no surly mom would have called if he is what if he doesn't no blake don't think that what if he doesn't it's bad I know it's bad I don't want to say it but it is I need to check on him I turn off the shower and get out quickly getting redressed and grabbing his clothes I fix his bed before I leave making sure it's perfect when he returns I rush back out the house and to the hospital again when I get there nothing has changed I drop the bag and go back to my spot

"you know I meant take your time"

"I did"

"Blake you were barely gone an hour"

"that's a long time" I say I hear her scoff at me I lay my head down next to him on the bed and the heaviness of my eyes hit me falling with no support I sleep when I wake up everyone is there I look around Josh, Caroline, Heather, and my mom sitting around me talking

"good morning sleepy head" my mom says to me I look over at Ashton. heart still beating breathe still steady he's still fine I release the breath I was unknowingly holding

"he's fine honey he's going to be fine" heather reassures me I can't start to imagine what she's feeling yes I love him but he's her one and only son her only child I never got to tell Ashton about ours our child I just wish he would wake up so that I could.