Without You

Chapter 75

Blakes pov

I stand in the bathroom of my childhood bedroom looking down at the counter the test I just took laying on it the two pink lines showing up clearly internally freaking out having no other thought but oh shit how could this of happened I'm a month from graduation my life is supposed to be beginning this just makes it feel like its ending my mothers going to kill me, Ashton, he he's not ready he doesn't want this what am I gonna do I'm interrupted by a knock on the door I quickly slide the test and box into trash looking over I see him open the door

"baby" he pauses what he was gonna say "are you okay" he asks I feel the tear he sees run down my face I wipe it quickly

"uh yeah, im just thinking about graduation"

"uh okay well were about to start leaving"

"Okay I'll be down in just a minute love" I say closing the door with him I turn and slide down the counter barring my face into my knees letting out a few tears then standing wiping the rest away looking down to my stomach I place my hand on my lower abdomen saying "you'd really like him" then walking out the bathroom. The whole car ride to the track I was clearly distracted looking down at my stomach the whole time looking strange to everyone but me because everyone but me doesn't know that I'm pregnant. It's always been a Stone-Baylor tradition to show up to the track at the same time as all the riders so that one we can get the best seats and two so we can cheer on our racer in warm-ups. Ashton leaves as soon as we get there disappearing but not before he pulls me back saying I love you and kissing me I say it back but I hate to say I was distracted I catch up with my family and we find our grade-A spot right front row right next to the gate with the perfect view of the start and finish line. we watch as the line of boys appear for warm-ups I spot almost immediately in his blue and white racing outfit covered in logos of his different sponsors MY boy I notice though a guy next to him in red talking to him Ashton ignores him I can see in his face that he hates what he's saying whatever it is. the countdown starts beep one beep two then the blaring horn the boys take off Ashton doing his usual strategy slow at first but the guy in red does the same he's just in front of Ashton until Ashton hit his excel and leaves that dude in his dust crossing the finish line first I jump up and cheer as loud as I can

"you can calm down it's just warm-ups'' josh leans over and tells me

I calm down sitting sinking into the seat slouching an ugly slouch hanging my head the guys do a few more warm-up laps then go back to the shed to relax before the big finale. As more families arrive I tell Caroline I'm going to the bathroom and sneak off to the shed. I walk through the doors quite easily looking around at all the guys tweaking things on their bikes and sitting down getting in the zone. I spot mine, MY guy, I sneak up on him his eyes closed and headphones in I take a moment and contemplate if I really should disturb him but I don't get much time to decide red dude decides for me plucking one of the earbuds out of Ashton's ear and telling him

"you have an admirer" he walks over to me putting his arm around my shoulders "he looks so cute like that doesn't he" I give him a side-eyed look and he lets go

"go away Combs" Ashton says annoyed and pissed off the dude Combs walks away when he's gone Ashton looks at me I can see him soften up "hi baby" he says I let out a soft shy giggle

"hi love" he walks over and hugs me squeezing me tight I forget for a second about the uh baby then once I remember that's the only thing I can think about he lets go and I know I have to tell him

"what are you doing here?" he asks me

"I came to tell you good luck in private" and to tell you about our baby

"Thanks, darling but are you sure that's all?" he asks me

nows my chance Blake just spit it out say Ashton I'm Pregnant "for now yeah" I say nodding

"Okay," he says hesitantly I hug him again as the announcer comes over the speakers "10 minutes ladies and gentlemen 10 minutes"

"I guess that's my cue to leave," I say "listen after you win I have to tell you something" I can't distract him with personal problems right now he needs to focus on the race, not my our problem

"Okay baby" he says kissing me I hold on to it as long as I can "I love you" I say "I love you" he responds

I walk away out of the shed and back to my family more shaken than when I left I sit down and caroline looks over to me "that was a long pee" she says skepticism all over her words

"yeah" I say I see her glance down at my hands

"are you okay?" she asks

"yep just peachy" I say putting on the fakest happy voice and smile

"okay" she says not getting time for much else "ladies and gentlemen get ready for the race of the year this is the moment we all have been waiting for" we all stand to get a look at the racers pulling up as the announcer lists each one "returning champion number 42 Ashton Baylor followed by rookie of the year number 24 Amri Combs" huh red dude Amri Combs Rookie of the year interesting "racers start your engines" he announces then beep one beep two the blaring horn sounds and they all take off rounding corners and taking the highest looking jumps i wince everytime Ashtons wheels leave the ground he crosses the line for lap one and starters his round two he rounds the first corner sharply and the second wide most the other racers starting their second laps as Ashton does his first jump doing a whip i close my eyes as he does the trick opening when the crowds cheers fill my ears i see him back on the ground long enough for him to take his second jump this time doing a nac-nac i watch as he executes it perfectly in the air as he lands i hear a communal gasp from the crowd like they know something i don't before it happens i watch as his front tire hits the ground first skidding turning completely to the side sending him flying into the hay bails and his head bounced like he hit a trampoline the sound that came out of my mouth in that moment was a mixture of his name and an unearthly ungodly sound i screech as i run jumping over seats not knowing or caring who i push or hit i fling open fast the field gates sprinting to him not caring about any of the racers who might hit me or any of the safety protocols all i care about is my boy my lover who lays on the ground unconus covered in straws of hay and mud i make it to him i grab his head picking it up i yell but to me sounds like a whisper

"Ashton Ashton open your eyes please open your eyes talk to me anything say anything" I beg to his unconscious my body tingling like I'm in a dream a really really bad dream that I beg the universe to wake up from by the time I realize the medics and my family are there tears are streaming down my face Josh rip me off of him as I fight giving up I grip him and cry

they take off his helmet and I see the blood all over his face making my gut wrench more "he's breathing" one of the medics say I suck in my breathe holding it for a second before letting go.