i watch his face seeing little twitches here and there i follow them mostly around his mouth and eyes then out of nowhere he starts blinking opening his eyes he looks at me
"finally your awake" i say hugging him i hear the conversation stop "somebody go find a nurse" i say to my family surrounding me heather gets up and leaves to find one
"Blake what happened?" he asks me
"you crashed love you have a concussion" i tell him he gives me a strange puzzled look
"will i be able to race again" he asks
"maybe in time but the important thing is that you're alright" i say leaning to kiss him but he turns so i kiss his cheek
"whoa Blake listen i only like you as a friend" he says
"haha Ashton very funny" i say hoping what he said was a joke
"not a joke you're cool but i see you like a sister" im taken back by this i look to josh sitting in the corner he looks just as confused as i am
"bro its cool im okay with you two remember" Josh says
"i have no idea what your talking about" he says
"amnesia it's common for these types of cases it may come back in time" the nurse tells us as she enters the room
"may?" i question her
"yes in most cases it come back in a matter of weeks of months but in the most severe cases it may never" i stile back a breathe to prevent me from tearing up
Ashton may never remember our relationship he may never remember our i love yous he may never New York he may never remember us i turn to Ashton he looks unfazed but i guess that's to be expected when you don't remember what you may never again i look to everyone else Caroline Mom Heather Josh all frozen looking to me no tears no words no nothing i breathe in again and feel a singular tear run down my face i turn and rush out of the room out of the hospital i hear footsteps rushing behind me almost in unison once i make it through the hospital doors tears pour like a waterfall my knees become weak and i was struggling to get full breaths as i stumbled from sadness a person came and caught me sitting me on a bench
"he's not going to remember us"i say through my tears
"he'll remember just give him time" josh says
"how much" i yell
"a week or month"
"you heard her in severe cases it may never come back he is a severe case josh"
"Blake calm down"
"calm down calm down you don't get it Josh we've been in love since we were 15 and he doesn't remember a second of it" i say losing all cool i still had
"don't you think i know that" he yells back at me "your my sister he's my best friend you are the two people i know best in life i knew before you did"
"what?"
"it was so god damn obvious it hurt i mean you fucking kissed him Blake right in front of me not to mention your agruing you fought like a married couple and dont think i didnt know about the times he slept in your bed you both have creaky doors so yeah i knew even before you admitted it to yourself" he yells at me
"i i cant be here" i say standing and running to my car i get in and pull fast out of the lot.
i just drive letting my body take me where ever it wanted to go and letting my mind wonder amnesia he has amnesia hes never going to remeber us hes the love of my life and hes never going to rember us how will i be able to face him knowing remembering loving him i cant i cant see him everyday and not have those feelings i just cant i pause my thoughts looking where i am im home im just going to get my things and leave i go inside to my room and start to pack as i do new and old memories flood my mind i look at my bed and all i see is him and i cuddled up for all those years i look at the mirror and think of the day we almost got caught i walk to my bathroom and think of our first time i look up into the mirror and see the mess i have become pent up anger and frustration arise in me looking to the sink then to the mirror i cant handle it anymore then boom i punch the mirror causing my hand to bleed the mirror to shadder and none of my emotions to fade i look at the damage ive done and crumble running out of there needing to feel something anything at all because the emotion i feel at this moment is numb i feel numb no tears no worries just
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" i scream into the distance into the ocean on the beach hearing it bounce off the things around me now breaking i fall to the ground resting my head on my legs and wrapping my arms around them i cry intensely feeling a release when no more will falli breathe and look up into the dark salty air
"why?Why ed?" i say into the distance like he can hear me "why Ashton why after everything did he have to forget us" i pause like I'm waiting for a response but all i can hear is the ocean crashing against the shore sitting there a little longer just listening to the waves i get up and make my way back inside back to my room finishing putting things together in my suitcase i walk down stairs placing my bags by the door i go into the kitchen and leave a note
"sorry i just couldn't be here when yall got home i'll call i love you-Blake" and with that i load my bags in my car and drive off uncertain of the future uncertain if i'll ever see Ashton again.
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Without You
RomantikThey have been friends since they were 6 silently in love with each other since 15 A very popular and famous motocross champion and a nobody to put it plainly When they finally Break the silence what will come of it •••••••••••••••••••••••••••...
