..but I still want you // OT7 [COMPLETED]

15 || Difficulties

SEOKJIN & DANBI

Seokjin POV

"I can't do it with him." Danbi peers sadly up to me as I reach into an upper cabinet for a few spices.

I sigh slightly annoyed as we have been over this many times before. "Bibi, he is yours. You are supposed to connect with him."

"But he's so scary, Jinnie! I felt like he was going to attack me right before I ran out of his apartment."

"You ran away from him again?"

She crosses her arms over her chest. "He looked like he was going to eat me alive."

"You should hope he indeed does." I softly reply, reading the instructions on the box of the instant meal I am attempting to prepare.

Danbi gasps and covers her mouth in shock when my statement finally registers. "Jinnie!"

"You are still so innocent, Bibi, and I'm sure he is equally as innocent as you or the fates wouldn't have made you partners. Isn't he a little younger than you?"

Frowning, she uncrosses her arms and slips her hands into the front pockets of the adorable flowery romper she's wearing. "He's twenty-seven, three years older."

"Did something happen to his first partner?"

She chews the inside of her cheek. "I am his first partner."

I drop my pepper mill in shock. "He's never connected with anyone before and he's twenty-seven? What in the hell has he been doing all of these years?"

"Probably running off potential partners with his scary glare."

"Bibi, stop! I mean how has he been managing his desires without a partner." I squint to read the tiny print on another package. "There's only so much masturbation a man can do."

Danbi twists my dish towel around her tiny fingers. "He looks like he's been with a lot of women. Like, a lot. I am not so sure that I want to give myself to someone like him."

"It's not giving yourself to him. You and he are fated as partners and your bodies are synced. He only wants to share the connecting experience with you and you alone. How many ounces are in a cup?"

"Eight, and he looked sex crazed." She watches as I pour ingredients into a sauce pan. "What are you making anyway?"

"I am making my girlfriend dinner tonight. She is always thinking of me when I have a late shoot and since she is studying late I thought I would try to do the same for her.. though I'm not sure exactly what I'm doing."

Sniffing the glop in the pot on the stove makes me gag a bit. "This looks nothing like the box."

"I think you added too much water." Danbi sneers at the concoction.

"Damnit."

"Maybe you should consider take-out."

Sighing heavily, I toss the box into the trash. "She always thinks of me and makes me a homemade dinner. I really wanted to make this for her tonight."

"There will be other times to make her dinner I'm sure. You can try again tomorrow."

"I, uh, I'm supposed to meet my partner tomorrow." I busy myself cleaning up my disaster dinner.

"You're lucky you already connected, Jinnie."

Now it's my turn to run away from our tether. I can't look Danbi in the eyes and confess my true feelings.

"Hm." I reply washing my hands in the sink at the opposite side of the room.

Danbi follows me leaning against the counter to look into the corner of my eye. "What's it like? Connecting with someone so deeply?"

"Uhm.. I don't exactly remember."

Blinking in confusion, Danbi tilts her head to the side. "How do you not remember?"

"I don't feel the same connection with my partner as I once did. Something has changed and I'm still working through it."

"What changed?"

As much as I fight to hold in my emotions, I know Danbi can feel them when her face contorts the longer she eyes me. That's one thing I'd like to be able to turn off and on with my succour; Danbi shouldn't be able to feel every emotion I feel when we are together.

Swallowing nervously, I notice Danbi do the same. "My feelings for my girlfriend."

"How are your feelings for your girlfriend affecting your sex life?" Her voice is anxious. She doesn't want to hear that my trifecta isn't perfect as she always imagines it to be.

"As my girlfriend and I lay in bed together night after night I can't help feeling.. an attraction I know shouldn't exist."

I twist my mouth to the side mumbling my next statement, not wanting to vocalize the truth. "I lay behind her fighting.."

Danbi grabs me by both arms forcing me to face her. Her big innocent orbs look panicked, even more than I feel right this minute.

"Jinnie! Are you saying what I think you're saying? You want to do it with her?"

"It's more than that, Bibi. I can hear her call on me as she sleeps. I swear she does and it's not my imagination." Closing my eyes, I try to breathe my way through the thoughts of how melodic and alluring Dykema's voice echoed in my mind while I cuddled her all night.

"She's never called on you when she's awake?" She seems relieved as if that made everything make sense. "Maybe you were dreaming and believed you heard her call."

Huffing, I stare directly at Danbi. "Do you want perfect honesty?"

Danbi's 'duh' expression is too cute for words.

"The hardness of my erection from her call makes it too difficult to sleep."

Tomatoes have nothing on the color currently tinting Danbi's face. "Oh. Wow. I didn't expect.. uhm.." She tucks a lock of hair behind her ear as she averts her gaze.

"Yes I, even as meek as I may seem, am capable of raging hard-ons." I turn to finish cleaning my mess.

"I didn't mean that, Jinnie. I just.." She pauses to sort her thoughts. "So, what do you do with your.. issue? Do you go to your partner or do things yourself?"

"That's where the connection with my partner has changed. My girlfriend's call grows louder and louder each night we spend together. The last time I even heard my partner call on me, it was nearly two weeks ago and barely a whisper."

"But you're seeing her tomorrow you said. So you still hear her?"

"She text me earlier and asked if I could come over. I told her I would tomorrow evening."

"Did you not hear her call on you?"

Trying to swallow the words I don't want to say isn't successful. "No. I'm honestly not sure I can even hear her at all anymore."

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a/n: raise ur hand if you think Jinnie has been missing out on some booty calls 🤚