..but I still want you // OT7 [COMPLETED]

54 || Keeping Secrets

SEOKJIN & DYKEMA

Seokjin POV

"You look upset still."

Probably because I am even though days have passed since Dykema and I had really, really bad sex. She also made a confession as we lay in bed the next morning that blew my mind to pieces.

Dykema wasn't a virgin.

I still feel like an idiot for convincing myself that she had never been touched my any man with as beautiful as she is. I should have known she would have men dropping at her feet.

Barely glancing in her direction from where I lay in bed, I feel like I need to lie. "No. I'm fine."

She rolls to her side (facing me I assume as I still can't look at her) and takes my hand laying between us. "Talk to me, Jinnie."

"About what?"

"It's obvious you expected me to not know about sex or my body. It's even more obvious you're upset you didn't plant any flags."

"I feel stupid. You and I never talked about you having a partner so I just assumed you were waiting. I don't know why it never dawned on me that you would've had sex without connecting to someone."

She shifts to her back, but continues to hold my fingers. Her gaze falls to the bedroom window as she speaks. "I was young and curious. It happened and I moved on."

"Did you try to connect with him? Did you want to?"

Dykema sighs deeply. She doesn't reply.

"We never discuss the other parts of your trifecta, Dykema. Why is that?"

"Nothing to discuss. I have you, my succour, and an empty spot in my trifecta."

"Tell me about your succour then."

"I don't know what you want to know."

This doesn't sit right with me. "Just generalities. Is he tethered? Kids? Personality? The same things I've shared with you about mine."

"Yes, no, and great."

Dykema releases my hand and drags herself from the bed. "I'm going to shower. I don't know when my sister will need me to be at Mom and Dad's to help her set up for the party, but I want to make sure I'm ready early."

I observe her grabbing her undergarments from her dresser drawer. She doesn't bother to look at me nor does she add anything before disappearing into the hallway.

My curiosity piqued, I wait until I hear the shower running and Dykema singing then I head her way.

My boxers tighten ogling the outline of my girlfriend's amazing body through the shower door. Her curves are amazing and it only takes a split second to decide to join her in case she needs me to get a spot she can't reach.

Her lavender flower print shower cap keeping her hair protected from the water makes me smile. She doesn't realize I have slipped into the shower behind her as she washes her face with her eyes pinched shut.

Dykema takes a step back from the water, jumping slightly when she presses against my body. I don't waste the opportunity to slip my arms around her waist and cover her chest with my palms while nipping at her neck.

"What are you doing, Jin?" She doesn't sound happy.

"I want to try again. You arouse me so much, Dykema." I coo in her ear.

"We shouldn't have done it the first time." She gasps when I move one hand down between her legs.

"Please teach me how to satisfy you."