..but I still want you // OT7 [COMPLETED]

36 || The Best Of Me

NAMJOON

Namjoon POV

"Yes, I know it is difficult to believe unconnected Carlisle looks exactly like a fucking Disney princess." Carlisle laughs away the sting of her shot.

"That is astounding!" I reply staring at the photo on Carlisle's phone. "You really went from baking cookies to death and mayhem after meeting your partner."

"Sort of. I still bake cookies and shit." She chuckles tucking her phone into her back pocket.

"Do you miss it? The way you looked before?"

"Yes and no. Honestly, I liked having long hair. I always thought it to be one of my best features, but judging from my appearance now, my partner believes differently."

I take a drink of my beer. "Why no then?"

"Namjoon.." Carlisle stands back from the bar so that I can witness the way she seductively runs her hands over her entire body.

I didn't need to see that.

"..have you seen this body? These curves and-" She turns to the side and slaps her rear end "-this ass are works of art! My tits are amazing too!"

Breezing back up to the bar top, she takes her breasts in her hands with a squeeze. "Just look at these tasty bitches."

I shake my head as I look down into my glass. I am both embarrassed and aroused by Carlisle's actions but she isn't wrong. Her body is indeed a work of art.

"What about you? When you were connected, what did you look like?"

"What didn't I look like? Amèlie was very much into anime and k-pop and she liked all of the different ways the guys had their hair styled. I probably had most of them. My eyes were usually like a grayish green hue. She seemed to have a soft spot for that color."

Carlisle snickers. "Yeah. I bet she had a 'soft spot'. What about your build? Did she change that?"

"Nah. She liked that I was tall and kind of muscular. She was a bigger.. fuller.. woman and she liked to wear my shirts after we had sex if she wore anything at all."

"I can't imagine how difficult losing her has been for you." She lays one hand comfortingly over mine. "I hope you find someone soon."

"Can I ask you a personal question?"

She removes her hand to reach for a clean bar mop. "Shoot."

"Are you in a relationship?"

"I have been seeing someone for a few months now. Why do you ask?"

"Is it a woman?"

The strange look Carlisle gives me tells me she is curious as to why I would ask such a thing.

"Yes.. because I am a lesbian."

I make circles around the rim of my beer glass. "Do you want children?"

"Eh. I mean if it happened okay, buy if not I'm perfectly okay with that too. Just means more money, less responsibilities, and more sleep for me in the long run."

"The woman you are seeing.. does she identify as a lesbian as well?"

"She says she's bi but she is more attracted to wome- oh! I see where you're going with this now." She grins mischievously. "My gaydar must be broken because I never thought that you would be attracted to the same sex, Namjoon."

My eyes shoot open. "No! No, not me! I am straight, but my girlfriend is.. not.. so much.."

"You mean to tell me the fates tethered you to a lesbian?"