All For Us

Wildcats forever

This week... uhh.

It's been an emotional wreck. Between saying goodbye to the seniors and final rally's. Today is finally Friday. I'm not ready for today. I'm not ready to let go of my friends. Of my family, of my lover.

"Justin" Anne says. We walk to the kitchen and look at her.

"I packed your lunch..." she wipes her tear off.

"Mom, this is my kindergarten lunch box" he looks at it.

"Your first day in school you took this and I want you to take it in your last day too" he goes in and give her a hug. They both have a long hug before getting to the car. She took us there, crying all along.

We got to the school and the school was kinda quiet. There was a poster saying "Long Live Senior Class of 2016" they had their senior pranks yesterday. I'm not gonna lie, the school looks like a mess.

They call us to the auditorium and we basically run there. When i got there I finally saw Jacob. Flashbacks came into mind. The first time we came here, how they were pissed about the teacher they got. Extracurricular day, the dress, ughh...

"Hi babe" he smiles at me.

"Hey" I try to ignore the sadness and put a smile on. As soon as we said hi the director stared talking.

"Good morning everyone, I just wanted to say that today is the last day of our class of 2016 and want everyone to remember to tell them farewell and I also want to remind them to take your stuff out of your lockers for summer cleaning. Graduation will be tomorrow at 9 am don't forget to come with your invitation."

With that we had to walk back to class. I just couldn't focus. I was so sad that I didn't even image what we were doing. It's so sad and depressing for me, I should be spending time with Jacob right now.

"Ron are you okay?" Ryder grabs my shoulder and brings me back to the reality.

"Yeah, kinda sad actually" I say.

"I understand, it's okay... everything is gonna be alright" the bell ring and we go back to the tables. Memory after memory is falling on each side of the room and it makes me numb. The field, the cafeteria, locker area, even the locker room showers bring memories of Jacob and I. I can't do it anymore.

I'm so fucking depressed I can't even look at things clearly. It's so unfair. Why does he have to leave. I want him here, everyday at school... with me. I don't want him gone.

"Ronnie where have you been?!" Jacob comes to the locker area and stare at me. He looks at my face worried. "What happened are you okay?".

"I'm not. Jacob I'm not okay.... I've been trying to go through this day but I can't. I don't want you to leave. I don't want our memories here to end. I can't stand the fact that you'll be gone and" I completely break down in tears.

"I'm gonna miss you" my voice breaks. He goes in and hugs me.

"Please don't graduate, stay with me" I keep on crying, even louder this time.

"I wish I could, but I can't baby... I gotta leave for university, but we still have 3 months together" he also looks at me with sympathy. "Please don't cry".

"I'm sorry, but I don't know how I'll do life without you" I keep crying, maybe stronger.

"You'll do it alright, I'll be there with you every step of the way" I feel a tear climb down my face. After having a full breakdown I'm able to breath. The pain in my chest finally lowers. So we walk back to class and everyone was really worried about me crying. I just explained the situation and everyone understood.