"Ohhh I'm so sorry i didn't know that you would come here, I was just..." he stops me going forward.
"It's okay, I knew you would be here after what happened last night, and I brought red velvet" he shows me a stack of food. He offers a hand and I stand up.
"How did you know I was going to be here?" I ask walking towards the little barn house.
"Well, I know that this is your escape place and also I know that you wanted to see me, finish what we couldn't last night" I blush a little.
I just put the blanket on the table and serve the cake.
"So how long haven't you been here for?" he looks around at the kinda messy house.
"The same time as you" I whisper to him. he looks at me, noticing dishonesty. "I come here once a week..." I finally admit to him. "Here lives my mom and brother".
"I know and I'm glad you come here often, after all the place is yours" he smiles at me.
"What are we doing here Jacob?" I cut the flirtatious conversation.
"What do you want to do here? Even tho we are not together anymore it doesn't stop us from being friends. After all, you are the only person I trust with my feelings..." Okay I can do that.
"Tell me about it then" I grab another bite and saviour it.
"Well, Jas have sent me a letter not much ago and told me she is living in Portugal, can you believe it?" he looks amazed.
"Jaz in Portugal, Im so happy for her" I smile at him.
"Jo has also moved on, she got married finally, It was a double wedding with my dad's".
"I still can't believe Jo and I are the same age." He looks shocked at me.
"Oh my gosh" I stand up.
"Your birthday... you are 20! Happy late Birthday" I looked very shocked at him.
"And you are one step away from being legal" I laugh at it.
"Finally!!" I look at him with relieve.
"How about you, how has life been treating you?" he asks opening his whole body up.
"Well I thought life was perfect for me, new cheer spot, honor roll, even new hair, yet I still feel a whole in my soul, I try to push away anxiety and fear of being abandoned" I open up to him this time.
"As if no matter if I take one step forward, I always go 5 back" he lays his head on my shoulder.
"I feel exactly the same" he whispers to me and we just stare at the garden in silence.
"You know, I did something today that I shouldn't and I can't stop thinking about it" I feel a tear forming at the back of my head.
"Oh... what is it?" he asks very worried.
"I told Ryder that I love him, without even feeling it and now I feel awful about it" finally the tear runs down my face.
"Why do you feel bad about it? It's okay if you catch feeling for him" he tries to give me the biggest amount of sympathy.
"Cause I.... I don't love him" Another tear runs down my face. "I love him as a friend but I never saw him like anything else and I made a mistake by showing fake advances" When we look at each other's lips he pushes away.
"Yes you do, you just gotta learn to admit it" he grabs both of our plates and take them inside.
"What if I don't" I kinda look desperate at him.
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All For Us
RomansaVeronica has lived her whole life in her home in Australia, but one day, she had to move to the other side of the world and her life changed from the way she used to know it. She ended up meeting a boy... But the circumstances are not easy, she is 1...
