My Blind Date is a Gangster | Taejin ✓

13. I Love Me

✴ Seokjin ✴

Taehyung just smiled and walked closer to me. I was hesitant to ask him that, as I thought he would again assume that I'm leading us to having sex, just by asking him to hold my hand, I totally know how his mind runs.

But he looked serious and took my hand. He then made me face the beautiful view, stepping back a bit so he is out of my sight.

"Just start whenever you're ready.." Tae whispered, squeezing my hand gently.

Then I inhaled deep and shouted as loud as I can..

"DADDD!!! I'm so sorry I can't be perfect!!!! I tried my hardest but I can't be a perfect son for you!!!!"

As soon as I screamed those out, my tears started to stream down my face. I felt Tae caressing my hand, he must have already heard my sobs, he knew I'm crying even without seeing my face.

"I did everything you want me to, Daddd!! I know I failed you!!.. But I will continue to try and be the best for you until you accept me!!!!

The real meeee!!!! Me who likes only men!!!! I am gay and I don't fucking care!!!! I am gayyy... But I can do anything and reach anything!!!! Because I am meee!!!!"

I think I am losing my voice as my throat already hurts due to too much crying. So I just whispered, but loud enough for Tae to hear.

"I- I am m-me and I shouldn't b-be ashamed. I will s-stop living as how d-dad wants me to live my l-life. I am me, a-and I love being just me. I won't hide it a-anymore."

I continued to cry and just stayed silent as I look far. I felt more free. Tae is right. It feels so satisfying. I'm so grateful I went on this date with him. Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to discover what breaks me and what would set me free.

Tae cleared his throat and said softly, "You done?"

"I AM MEEEE!! AND I LOVE MEEEE!!!!"

I shouted one last time, then I nodded but my eyes are still looking down the overlooking view. "Yeah. I'm good now. Thanks for holding my hand, Tae." I whispered.

Then I felt him let go of my hand, but his arms snaked around my waist. His warm breath is against my nape as he spoke,

"I want you to know that you are perfect just the way you are, baby. I don't exactly know what's the deal with your father, but always remember that you being imperfect in his eyes is only in his eyes, that he chose only what he wants to see.

..And I see more than that. Maybe not what your dad sees, or even what your ex-wife sees.. I chose to see you as my perfect baby. Not looking at anything else. Just you."

Taehyung is making me feel more emotional right now. I honestly think that he is one of those who can understand me, aside from Chim and Hobi. I turned around and faced him,

"Thank you, Tae. Now I believe that I met you for a reason. You may not be the prince charming I have expected, but I think you're the only one who can set me free."

He wiped my tears with his thumb. This time, I'm the one who leaned in for a kiss. I wanted to feel more of his comfort. Our first kiss during our first date just came back rushing to me again. It feels somewhat the same, but actually better.

He pulled me closer as I embraced his neck and deepen our kiss. I think I have never felt like this before. I don't know if it's just because I'm feeling so emotional that I'm feeling so weak in his kiss.

As I close my eyes, I can only feel him smiling while we kiss. And it made me smile too. I'm happy feeling his lips on mine. As he continued to caress my back, I am becoming more and more into our kiss, so I let my tongue glide into his mouth.

I heard him moan then he tightened his grip on my waist. He welcomed my tongue by sucking on it hard. This time I moan harder. Then he licked my lips before he sucked on them too.

As we continue to share a passionate kiss, I can feel our lips are already swollen. We are both catching our breaths already, so I was the first to pull back. I caressed his cheek before I place a last long peck on his lips.

Tae smiled at me and said, "I don't have this in my dream list, this shouting your heart out thing, but damn, this is far better than all those fucking listed ones."

I chuckled at what he said, then I thought for a while, "Hey, why don't you shout something too? Don't you have anything in mind to say?"

Tae bit his lips and looked far, thinking. Then he let go of me and went to face the overlooking view, he started to shout out his mind,

"Kim Seokjin!!!! I won't stop calling you baby even if you don't like it!!!!

Kim Seokjin, my babyyy!!! I like you soooo much!! And I will do anything to always make you smile!!! So I hope I can fuck you tonight alreadyyyy!!!!"

I rolled my eyes and hit him playfully, he's laughing hard as he faced me, "I told you to take that off your list, not happening!!"

"Aww, man!! I gave that kiss my best, it didn't make you horny??" He said pouting his lips on me.

I shook my head in disbelief and smiled, "Let's go back. It's getting too hot." I turned around and went back to my ATV.

"No baby, we're not yet done. We'll go to that headquarters up there. We are taking the zip line down the mountain back to the registration office." Taehyung grinned at me.

"Wait, what??!"

*******

Tae wasn't kidding, we really did the zip line to go back down from where we came from. He said it's in his dream list too. I was really scared right before it started, but we did it as a couple, my back leaning on him, so it wasn't so bad.

And I was so distracted as Tae kept on kissing my cheek as we slide down the line, while taking a video of us. He said he's going to show it to his brother and his two best friends. I was against it, but later on I asked him to send me the video so I can show it to Chim and Hobi too.

Tae's dream date turned out to be mine too. I never dreamed of this kind of date, but I think nothing can ever beat this. Not only that we had so much fun, but it also released the better side of me. A side of me that I've been hiding for a long time now.

And I can only be like this with Taehyung, carefree and comfy. Only with him.

Yes, he is a gangster, but no other decent man or chaebol's son can make me feel this way. Just him, only him.. my gangster Tae.

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✴ A/n: I was supposed to publish this right after the chapter before as it's really a double update, but the army noonas suddenly called, so yeah I published late, sorry!

Anyone excited for the PTD online concert this weekend?! 😭