When Mrs. Infamous Loved The Masochist... (BOOK 2)

Chapter 50

Carina's POV

It was my birthday today, but I didn't feel much like celebrating it today. Mostly because Remington wasn't here to celebrate it with me even though I knew he was working hard on the record with the band. Even though my friends all wished me a happy birthday and gave me gifts, it was hard to enjoy what was supposed to be a special day without everyone I loved here. I treated the day like normal and when I was working that day, wished that I had stayed home instead. As I finally went home and got settled, I was expecting at least a phone call from Remington, but I received nothing. Distraught, I fed Fern her dinner and headed upstairs to get ready for bed. As I changed into my night clothes, I looked at myself in the mirror in the bathroom and sighed as I stared at myself. I was now 23 years old and even though it didn't feel right, a part of me wondered if these years are as golden as they say it was. Nothing fun comes with being an adult, and it's hard to be expected to handle everything yourself when you're young and inexperienced. However, in my case, my life as a teenager was much worse. I like being able to make my own decisions and be myself as an adult compared to when I was still living under my parents' roof.

I finally settled into bed and tried going to sleep, but I couldn't. This bed was bigger than my old one and even thought I'm not used to sleeping in a big bed, it made me feel lonely because it made me wish someone was here with me. I hated it because I've never felt this lonely and I'm afraid it made me seem weak and vulnerable. I spent a couple minutes trying to put myself to sleep until I heard the phone on the night stand close to me ring and startle me for a second. I sat up to answer it, "Hello?", I was a little upset someone was trying to call me this late at night until I heard, "Happy birthday, ma chérie..." Just from hearing the sound of his voice, my heart swelled in joy to hear Remington wish me a happy birthday which was something I needed all day. He spoke again in a somewhat guilty tone, "I'm so sorry I didn't call earlier. Today was the busiest as our producer had us perfect this one track for the record and I wasn't able to get a break to call you. I know how special this day was to you and even if I can't be there for you today, I still feel bad for not getting in touch with you all day."

I was silent for a moment after Rem apologized for his actions that weren't really his fault, then I responded to him by telling him, "It's okay, Rem. I didn't care that much for my birthday anyway. Never really have. But it's only special if I have people I love with me. It means a lot that you called anyway. I was beginning to think you forgot about me." He scoffed at my last statement and exclaimed, "Forget about you, Carina? Fuck no! I couldn't even if I tried and no matter what, I do whatever it takes to remind you that my love for you hasn't changed and it never will." That made me smile as I said, "Thank you, Rem." Then he told me unexpectedly, "I've got one more thing for you." I asked, "What is it?", I could hear his smile through the phone as he answered my question, "Your birthday present. I hope you like it." I didn't know what he meant by that at first, then I heard a soft piano play and after almost a minute, he began to sing into the phone with the piano as his background music.

I see you for what you are
Is something in your eyes
That look past my scars
So where do you go when you leave in the night?
'Cause I see those teary eyes

I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just wanted you
I just wanted you
I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just wanted you
I just wanted you

So stay this time
Don't go away
Don't go away
Don't go away
So stay
This time
This time

You see me for what I am
One thing you can say
That will leave me broken
The end is near
I really don't want to know
It's haunting me to watch you go

I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just wanted you
I just wanted you

So stay this time
Don't go away
Don't go away
Don't go away
So stay
This time
This time

I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just wanted you
I just wanted you
I am the only hope for you
You are the only hope for me too
I just, I just wanted you

So stay this time
Don't go away
Don't go away
Don't go away
So stay
This time
This time

As he finished the song, I wiped away the tears that kept falling down my face and quietly cried into the phone. I took a moment to collect myself before I told Rem in a shaky tone, "Remington...that was the most beautiful song...I've ever heard." He chuckled as he replied with, "That song is about you, my sweet angel. You're everything I'm living for now and I know everything will be okay while you're in my life. I love you." I started crying again as I said back to him, "I love you, too, Rem! Thank you so much for this! You've made my birthday worthwhile after all..." He chuckled through the phone and we bid each other good night before hanging up and I felt myself feeling grateful to have a boy in my life to restore my belief that I am worthy of love and happiness.