completely Mine (malec) (completed)

Chapter 38

Alec pov ...

( When magnus nodded for abortion in front of cat .. ) Why did he say " yes " for this termination .. He doesn't want this with me ?? He thinks that I couldn't take care of him .... yes I didn't talk to him because I am guilty .. I am guilty about what I have done to him , I should be more careful , I am the one who pushed him into the same nightmare again ... but why don't you argue magnus , why don't you ask me if you want this too .... I was confused while thinking about that .. ( after hearing magnus words in hospital corridor ) I was about to ask him something in the corridor but he stopped me and he spilled everything from his heart , he said I gave him more pain then mikel .. I hate myself for that . That's what I am afraid of , I don't want to be another mikel in his life .. After all , his words hit my mind like a hammer ... he said that I bring those dark days back , and he felt alone , it's my fault I was selfish I know , I want this baby with him .. I should have talked to him in the first place , and asked him whether he wanted this baby or not . it's clear he is doing this for me .. Before the procedure could start .. I stormed into the room " stop !!! Just stop !!! " The moment I entered the OT room I saw Magnus laying there lifeless , a drop of tears running from his eyes to ears ... but his face looks pleasant with a smile like he is dreaming about something he loves the most ... I leaned in front of him and patted his cheeks .. " magnus !!! Magnus ! !!! Wake up !!!! " he isn't moving , I couldn't help the next second I press my lips on him .. I saw him opening his eyes , his eyes looked more redder then mine .. " listen I want this with you ... I will look after you and baby .. I will take care of you both , pls will you trust me with this ??? " I asked him , I really want the answer to be " yes " ... more than I wish he nodded his head vigorously as " yes " . In between crying he slapped me using both of his hands on my cheeks right and left without break . Like in repeat mode it's nearly 4 or 5 slaps ... Or more than I count ... it doesn't hurt but a little rough I took it granted because I deserve this ...
" If you too want this , then why don't you tell me ??? " I asked holding his hand which is repeated slapping my cheeks .. " I was afraid ... don't you know I want this ??? " he said struggling to get away from my grip ... " where is that magnus who threw his words directly into my face ??? where is that straight forward person gone ??? where has that attitude gone ??? " I asked him in anger " I don't want to lose you because of my attitude .... I want this baby badly . This is mine , this is us " he said sobbing , he still didn't look into my face ... " you are an idiot ... I fell for your attitude in the first place magnus " I said hugging him tight ... he kept on pushing me away I struggled myself to hold him still ... " i hate you " he said in anger .. I get it he have all rights to be at me right now .. I think about my guiltyness .. I forget to think about from his side ... " I can take it .. I deserved it .. I am sorry " I said pressing my lips on him , at first he refuse to kiss me back but I know he can forgive me , after a moment he kiss me back and let me take a lead , the nurse's and the assistance were laughing at us but we have more important thing to do than listening to them right now ... " I hate you , " he said , placing kisses on my lips , again I missed counting how many .. " if this is how you hate me !!! Then I am not complaining .. It's okay you can hate me while kissing " I said and continued to kiss him again ... I wipe his tears and hold him tight , safe in my arms ..

Later on catarinas cabin ..

Me and magnus were sitting like we are the most innocent creatures in this world , we weren't facing her , we were both looking at the ground in different directions .. Meanwhile cat sitting on the opposite side , she is really giving us death glare by holding her head annoyingly ....

" pls don't keep your face like that..okay listen you both are ready to take risk .. So stop thinking about negative things ... I am gonna give instructions and you are gonna follow that without any arguments .. Am I clear " she asked looking at both of us .. We just nodded .. " don't act like that in front of me..1 ) No jogging but Morning walking routine is must.that may keep your blood circulation clear and helps in supplying constant blood to the baby .. 2 ) eat at the correct time , don't skip meals , eat healthy !! , midnight cravings are normal but don't eat junk food , fruits , veggies , high protein meat and nuts are must .. 3 ) mood swings are terrible , don't shout at him or make him depressed at any point .. ( Stress , anxiety , fear , depression and pregnancy are very bad combinations .. 4 ) take your daily supplements properly .. I will give you some steroids to overcome the complications in future and for healthy baby growth .. But you will  gain some weight , don't worry about it .. We need to keep baby safe ... 5 ) sleep well , no more shifting to your wolf form for next 2 months , no climbing too many stairs fast , take your time for each steps , avoid using lifts too 6 ) this is more important No sex for at least 2 months .. It's okay for a normal person but for magnus it's no !!! " she said a big list .. But the last one makes us give the most horrible reaction ... " what ??? Can't you both keep your hands to yourself for 2 months .. " she asked us angirly .. We give the most innocent look again ... " Jez !!!! Okay .. Intimacy , orgasm and your other stuffs are allowed but no sex !!! I hope you understand what I mean , " she said .. We look at her with our pleading eyes ... " God !!!! This family is such a drama company ... do as I said .. And don't show this face again..Like ... like you are too innocent ... " she said like a warning and left us by handing me a prescription ...

I can see my wolfy sleeping in the car halfway to the home .. He looks cute but his face looks more dull . I want to kiss those cheeks which I have missed for the past 2 days .. I lean to kiss him but he push me away ... " what ! ??? " I asked confusingly ... " don't touch me ! !! Drive " he said stammering his words on me ... I get it he is still upset with me ... " how long ??? Because that's too much for me " I said with a smirk .. " don't say any sweet words .. I hate you " he said and looked aside through the window .. I know he is not saying that from his heart but my alpha is begging inside to hear the word " love you " from him ... once we reach home , izzy Simon clary madzie and jace welcome is in celebration mode .. I can see magnus smile on looking at them ... he is hugging everyone except me ... " hooo !!!!! Great " I thought to myself .. " SO you're not the innocent , grumpy alec we all know right !! " Simon teased me .. I rolled my eyes on his statement .. Magnus laughs at me .. I look at him in disbelief .. " he is innocent in some ways " magnus said with a smile on his face . . God I miss this smile a lot .... " so I am gonna be a big sister papa ??? ... " she said , jumping on magnus arms ... I took her from him .. " Yes you are going to be a protective sister .. And about papa , don't jump on him more often .. I am here for you .. You can jump on me or kick me or slap me I don't mind " I said tickling her ... " yes daddy ... I understand .. If I jump the baby will get disturbed .. I get it ... but I'm gonna jump on you everytime ready to catch me .. Okay !!! " she said giggling at me .. " always love !! " I said in return I can see magnus gaze on me..

TBC...