Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 45

'Do I have to go' I moaned to nikki 'it would be nice and respectable if you did, she was your mother' she said 'she isn't my mother you and jess are' I insisted sitting on the couch in my outfit 'come on, jesy's your sister and you know that, all we do is travel there stay for the funeral and if you really don't want to go to her wake then I promise ill bring you back' she said 'fine' I huffed 'now sit infront of me so I can finish your hair' she demanded jokingly I was wearing A black skater skirts with a white blouse and a black blazer and my hair was being braided across the front and curled at the back 'how have you managed with me for nearly 9 days' I laughed 'because I love you' she smiled I've been with nikki since Mother's Day 9 whole days ago and that's how lono Janis has been dead and how long I haven't seen Jesy for. 'so a little sister ehy' tammie said as she came through the living room from her room 'ugh don't remind me, I'm so annoyed she had her scan in London she doesn't even live there' I raged 'aren't you excited' she asked 'nope, just another thing in the way of our bond' I shrugged 'you find this hard don't you' tammie asked 'really hard' I sighed flopping on the couch 'like obviously now she knows I know she isn't biologically related to me she will just focus on them more just like these last 9 days she hasnt even contacted once which really knocks me sad' I said looking at her 'its good job you've had nikki eh' she smiled 'yep I love her' i smiled at tammie 'love who' nikki asked coming back in 'not you' I joked whilst laughing at her 'oh really' she smirked 'yeah I can't wait to go back to my mum it's just soooo annoying here' i joked 'right that's it' she said coming towards me and I leaped up giggling running round from her as she chased me round the living room sofas 'i will get you' she said climbing over the sofa to get a better chance at me 'you won't' I sai. Sticking my tounge out running round the couch tammie was on which wasnt a good idea, I ran straight into nikkis arms and she locked them tight around me 'hahaha got you now' she said sticking her tongue out at me and I giggled my head off as she tickled me 'stop please' I begged and she did as I asked and we had a little moment 'love you' I said wrapping my arms around her back 'I love you more little one' she smiled kissing my forehead and then I rested my head into her chest 'please don't make me go to London, I don't want to be upset I'm not even upset' I begged 'babe come on' nikki said 'I don't want to go' I demanded pulling away from her 'you are going' She said and I walked away from her and to her room and slammed her door shut I just didn't want to go I wanted to stay here and go to work and have fun and enjoy myself. I pressed myself up against the door and listened to what was being said tammie was trying to help but nikki was getting wound up 'just go see her, explain how it's important' tammie said 'she is pushing my patience these last two days I never thought she would with her not being around me long but boy she is really getting me into the parent roll' I heard nikki say which made me smirk I knew yesterday and today I've been a bit up tight but a little trouble never hurt anybody 'she's still a kid and a kid with anger issues and they all wind their parents up you gotta get used to it..but have you ever thought she's playing up because of her mum' tammie said 'but' nikki said 'but nothing Niknak I know you're new to this but come on Nik' tammie said 'but what do I do' nikki asked 'right your child, your very own little girl is in that room possibly crying...but I do know she doesn't want to go and say goodbye to the woman that she called mum but it's only right she does so don't give in show her who is boss' tammie said and I heard heels clopping along the boards and jumped on to the bed and faced the opposite way so she thought I was upset 'can I come in' I heard as the door opened 'your already in aren't you' I said not facing her 'well..are you okay' she asked 'never been better' I mumbled 'come on we need to leave' she said 'I really don't want to' I said slowly and softly 'is it really that bad' she asked and I slowly turned over to see her stood dressed in black fitted pants that stopped above the ankle some cute dolly shoes and a white blouse with a black cardy just like me but I had a skater skirt on not fitted pants all I did was nod 'oh babe why don't you want to go' she said sitting on the bed 'I just don't want to I don't want to say goodbye I want to keep her memory going with no goodbyes' I admitted 'this isn't a good bye it's more of a cya later' she smiled and I shook my head 'if you loved me you wouldn't make me go, you'd take me to work to see ruby' I said looking up at her and the tears just rolled out 'if you loved me you'd go and say goodbye to the person that did my job' she said moving closer to me 'and for the record I love you..very much' she said 'I don't want to see family, I don't want to see jess' I said 'but why' she asked and I just stared at her 'cause I'm gunna be there' she said and I nodded 'do I look bothered what your family think of me, I may only have one member of my family there today compared to you but that's all I need' she said whilst wiping tears 'but they will think..' I said 'who cares what they think they are the ones that lied not me' she asks 'Infact no I don't care, they don't understand who's looked after me mainly since finding out the truth bet they'd love to know jess is hardly there for me now' I said 'you my little pudding are all I need, besides I'm here for you not them so let them talk but us we are stronger than that' she said which only made me fall into her arms more 'when it's over can you bring me back' I asked 'does this mean your going to go' she asked and i nodded 'okay first train back and we will get on it' she smiled and I hugged her tight 'you let them tears out it is aloud' she said.