Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 58

I've been in hospital for 8 days, well was. I get out today which is also Isabella's funeral. Not a lot has happened since the crash, I was in recovery for the first 2 days the I woke up and just rested and I've not left Jesys bedside her nor Jake have woken up yet, none of them are breathing on their own yet. I haven't really seen mum either I can't get the words she said to me out of my head grieving or not, Kirsty has been with me every step of the way.

'Are you sure about coming home' Kirsty asked 'positive, I can't stay here any longer I'm fine just a bit broken and bruised' I smiled 'you gave me a scare, I couldn't face loosing you' she cried 'I'm awake and fine' I said hugging her back 'elizabeth' I heard at the door 'go away' I said lying down 'please' mum broke her heart  'leave' I said 'I just wanted to bring you this, please come' she said setting a little pink flower clip on my bed 'I'm not coming' I said and she walked away and left 'things will get better' Kirsty said 'really..I lost my brother, my adoptive mum, my little sister and could loose my brother in law and my big sister the only person I love more than I love mum all in the space of 2 years is it really going to get better' I cried 'it will I promise' she told me and got up as the nurse came in 'you are free to go' she said handing me some paperwork I hopped off the bed as best I could 'I won't be long' I told her and hobbled off out the room, I was heading for adult ICU ward. I finally made it up to be met by 3 very tired,drained and upset looking girls 'libby' Jade said quietly and stud up as I limped towards her 'you all look tired' I said 'just drained and distraught' she said hugging me 'why aren't you lot in there' I asked 'libs' Leigh said as Jade pulled me down into her knee and perrie burst into a fit of tears and I looked scared 'what's going on' I asked as Leigh tried to calm perrie 'Please' I said with no emotion and jade just hugged me 'We were in there before she was still peaceful, we were just talking about the girls and how they're fine with their nan and the machine just went off out of nowhere a few doctors rushed in' Jade told me and I couldn't hold the tears back 'she's dead' I said 'no..but she doesn't have long left' Jade said and finally cracked which made me stand up to look in the next room where Jake was 'where's jake' I said looking at them 'Libby come here' Jade said 'he's not in there is he up' I asked 'Libby' Jade said 'can I go see him' I said 'LIBBY sit' Jade raised her voice and it made me and perrie jump 'he didn't make it' Jade said and I couldn't let anymore tears out 'how' I said 'he wasn't well babe the force of everything has caused to much impact the same with jesy, they've done all they can its just time now' she told me and I was numb. I'd be sat on jades knee nearly an hour the doctors were still working around jesy 'it's 12 I need to go' I told them 'where' Leigh asked 'Belles funeral' I said 'we didn't know' they said 'doesn't matter, I wasn't going but after everything today I need to be' i said and limped off Kirsty was waiting in reception for me and as soon as I saw her I cried and cried like there was no tomorrow 'jakes dead and jesy..she doesn't have long' I said fast 'woah what' she said and pulled me in tight 'let's go home' she said as she held my hand to the car. I walked into my house and the smell of flowers filled the air, my living room and kitchen were full of flowers and condolence cards 'happy new year to us' I said sadly 3 days into the new year and this is what's happening I slowly made my way upstairs and to my room an outfit was laid on my bed and a little not 'I know you said you weren't coming but I need you there, please here's a new outfit for Isabella I want it to be bright and causal X' I screwed it up and chucked it in my bin the outfit was some kahki green skinny jeans some baby pink new converse and a top and cardi to match I stared at it and thought about how many people I've lost in so little time and my family I had around me still 'go for your baby sister do it for her no one else come on libby' I heard and I swear it was josh I looked around as if I was dreaming but when I turned back to the outfit I swear josh, Jake, Siri and my adoptive mam were sat on my bed and it scared me 'do it for that baby' Jake said and I freaked 'it isn't her fault she's dead..do it Libby..you could of been dead but you were a lucky one' josh said 'your family that's here needs you libs go..don't let our deaths ponder on you' Siri said they'd all died in a car crash well one of my siblings had and another is loosing it to a crash 'stop thinking of the crash..you survived..you need your mum go support her cause right now she needs you to' Jake said 'do it for me you are better than that' I heard and I looked to my left and saw jesy 'jess' I whispered was she dead too 'go to that funeral, then go sit by Jesys bedside and comfort her for me..for our girls please she's loosing her battle and I don't want you to let that happen please save her' Jake begged 'go say goodbye and then go save your sister, you'll regret it if you don't..it will be your fault' Janice said and all I could think of was the crash and jesy and Isabella I screamed 'NO' and dropped to the floor 'what happened' Kirsty asked running in 'please tell them to go' I said cowering 'tell who' she asked 'Siri, josh,Jake..janice' I cried 'they aren't here' she said rocking me.