Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 23

It was all on big blur,nothing was sinking in at all,the police left around 8pm last night after going over things they'd found josh like his phone,his ID,his wallet and his house keys. Jon and Abbie went up to bed around 1am. Jordan and jess stayed too,the girls where next door with felicitie and Jordan had to go in and tell them what was going on then came back,my mam was so lifeless,she just sat on the couch and didn't move,didn't talk or anything,I give her a hug and she flinched so bad. I woke up this morning and my head was on jesy's knees and my legs where over Jordan,my eyes where sore from crying and my head felt like a big balloon. I looked up at Jesy and she was asleep with her head resting against Jordan's shoulders,her hand was intertwined with me and her right hand was holding my onto me so I didn't fall off of them I guess. Jordan was awake staring into thin air,I look over at mum on the over couch and was in the same position as she was last night she hadn't moved,I got up off Jordan and Jesy and quietly as I could trying not to wake jess and I went over to my mam and sat in her knee and just wrapped her in a hug,letting her know we where all here for her and show her love and comfort is Probably the best thing we could give her right now. I didn't want to let go of her ever 'I love you' I whispered into her ear,I felt her hand wrap around my back and she give me the smallest squeeze ever 'I love you too' she shakely breathed. After 10 minutes of hugging she let go and I climbed off her I looked at Jordan and he smiled at me with tears in his eyes 'your gunna be okay kiddo' he said and I give him a small hug and then kissed jesy's cheek 'I'm going to see john and Abbie' I said and walked off upstairs,there door was open,I seen them lying in bed together still fully clothed I went in and johnn tapped the space next to him 'I don't want to get in bed' I said without emotion 'how are you feeling princess' Abbie asked 'I feel weak,motionless and I don't think I can ever let it sink in that my brothers dead and my bestfriend,she was the only one that's actually show true friendship to me since moving here she was always there for me and now she's gone' I said wiping my eyes 'I need to go see my auntie Jane today take some flowers would you like to come,I'm sure she'd like to see you,she knows how close you where to Siri' she said I just shrugged and walked off downstairs again I seen Jesy hugging Jordan now,I just went straight to the front door, I opened it and shut it behind me and hopped the garden fence and went into Jesys. Perrie was sat on the couch in her pjs Leigh was asleep resting on her and jade was feeding the baby. I walked in and sat next to a sleeping Leigh but was soon joined by perrie who was hugging the life out of me but I didn't mind I was glad for her comfort 'there dead perrie' I screamed and she tightened her grip 'I'm so sorry' she said 'my bestfriend she's gone,who's going to be there to help me through school now' I said 'you are going to be just fine she said whilst cupping my face 'and josh what am I gunna do now' I cried into her shoulders 'shh shhh I'm here baby I'm here' she said whilst rocking me back and forth,I could see jade wiping her tears and now Leigh was awake and was shuffled right close to us.

I got ready an hour ago,we are off to see siris mum,well me and Abbie,jess has asked the girls if they could have felicitie for a few days until she's helped mum plan the funeral,just so she can be at our house and not have to fuss with felicitie,perrie said she'd take her so she's gone to Perries. I'm sat on the couch and Abbie comes down ready with her keys 'ready babe' she asked and I just nodded,I was still crying,I stud up and hugged mum and then went over to Jesy and she kissed my forehead 'your gunna be just fine little one' she said into my ear,I smiled a bit and she wiped my tears and I followed Abbie out to her car,we sat in silence for most of the journey 'what am I gunna do now' I asked Abbie looked at me and put one hand on my knee 'like jess said your gunna be just fine,we are gunna help you and so will your other bestfriends' she said and I wiped my tears 'you just don't get it no one does,Siri was my number one,my bestest,my soul mate she was there when none of the others where,she was the first to make me feel welcome here in London' I sighed and rested my head against the window,we stopped at a flower shop and Abbie ran in got some flowers for her aunty and some for my mum and came back and we drove until we stopped at siris,there was already flowers outside her garden, I layed our down with the rest and followed Abbie up to siris front door,we walked in and there was her mum,dad,nana and aunty Abbie's mum and her little sister was lying on the floor 'auntie jane' Abbie said and jane got up to hug her,she hadn't been to sleep either I could tell,she looked at me as I wiped my eyes 'Libby,come here' she said as I walked over and she engulfed me into a hug 'I love you so much,your always welcome here Siri would want me to see you still,your family' she said and I hugged her back as tight as I could. 'Im so sorry jane' I said and she started crying again. I looked around at Jane,Peter siris dad and her nan and then Lynn Abbie's mam they where all crying,I took one look at Kadie who was on the floor,she looks about 7 she doesn't really understand but she was crying still. The whole world seemed to be swallowing me up right on the spot. I looked over at Abbie who was telling me to go sit next to her but I couldn't 'I can't' I sniffled 'come here babe' she said walking towards me 'I need to go,I'm sorry' I said whilst running towards the front door.