Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 25

I lay on my bed,'11:45am' my phone read,I was dressed in my black pencil dress and had my black blazer on and my black converse to finish,my hair was scraped back into a low doughnut bun. I've been up since 7am and we bury my brother at 12pm today and Siri at 11am tomorrow which I'm not ready for any of those things. It's Friday,it's been 7 days since we found out and now it's time to say our final goodbyes,goodbye forever.

There was a small knock at my door 'come in' I said in the lowest voice possible it was jade 'hello pet,where going now' I groaned and she sat on my bed and rubbed my knee 'it's hard I know,it hurts I know but we will all be there for you' she said I just rolled my eyes shut,I couldn't keep the tears in,I let out a breath and sat up 'jade you promise' I asked and she nodded and wiped my eyes and we both stood up together and she grabbed my hand tight and led me downstairs,she was wearing her black high waisted pant version of a pinafore and a white shirt underneath and her small wedges and her hair was down and slightly curly. We entered the living room to see my family all around, all I could focus on has my family's outfits for some reason,I looked around to stop the tears falling more,perrie;she was wearing a black pencil skirt with a white blouse tucked in and black heels and her hair was up in her high pony tail and Leigh she was wearing an all in one,it was black and she had black wedges on similar to jade but higher and Jesy she had her black body con dress with her black heels and her long hair was loosely plaited to each side,john and my dad where wearing suits,Rachel had a pencil skirt on with a black blouse and my mam had her black pants on with a white blouse and black blazer,I didn't even bother looking at the rest of my family,it was all to much to take in everyone was wearing black,black for mourning,black to say goodbye and black for a funeral,the funeral of my brother the one we never even got to say goodbye too. A knock at the door took me out of my trance,it was the family car driver telling us they where here,everyone scarpered into cars and in the two family cars there was mum,jess,john and my mums mam Betty and then in the other four seats behind me,Abbie Rachel and dad and in the second family car there was Leigh,perrie,jade and Layton and in the back my two auntie and uncle and 2 cousins.

I sat in the church at the front,I was in the middle of Jesy and my mum everyone was crying and Josh's coffin hadn't been carried in yet,next to mum was john and next to jess was my dad and Rachael,the girls,Layton and auntie and uncle where the row behind us and my cousins and nanna and grandad where the other front row on the other side along with carter. The rest was full of siris family and friends of ours and Josh's. Chasing cars by snow patrol filled the church as his coffin was carried to the front,he had this song none stop on loud in his car all the time I know the song word for word. I stayed facing forward and let he tears roll out as they walked down and placed his coffin on the stand infront of us,I shrieked and Jesy looked at me but I turned away to face the front again. The priest was reading things and people had sung hyms but me and mum didn't take part we stayed sat down crying. It was time for john to get up and say his bit,no one had any idea what he was about to say.

'Joshua was my little bro,he was a bright lad,kind,warm hearted and was there for anyone who needed him especially my mum and baby sister ebby or some people know her as Libby or Elizabeth,well you all know our ebby is handful..ah sorry ebz,well he was the closest to her out of me and him and although we where both there to help her through her behaviour problems,hard times and the time she went missing but he..he was the best brother he did everything for her he did anything he could to make her happy even if it ment stop seeing her until she learnt her lesson and that's exactly what happened once and she learnt her lessons and he came back and started being the best big brother he could,the night he died he wasn't with any of us but ebby and not even she got to say goodbye,I honestly can't get over he won't be here to help me and jess sort ebz out or to make our family laugh and smile with his idiotic jokes and when he's drunk,I can't believe he isn't here at all,there was always one thing he said to me when I went home to Romford 'have you been looking after the girls' which made me laugh he was on about jess,ebby and mum and I always do but I promised him everytime I was down and he wasn't that I'd look after them and keep and extra eye out on ebz,and what I promised is what I'd do so this ones for you bro,love you sleep tight'.