Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 59

'All good things must come to an end' rang through my ears as I brushed my long straight hair, auntie perrie straightened it for me last night and then again for me ready for Jesys funeral. We attended jakes up in London 3 days after their deaths, today marks the 10th day they've been dead and today we say goodbye to Jesy. We have agreed to have her buried here in Liverpool because that's where her children will be living so it's better for us, felicity and harmony have settled fine, floss asks for mum now and then but other than that she loves nikki she's like her shadow and harmony she's in love with nikki too.

'I think she's in here' I heard a voice saying and my door opened, I could see nikki holding the baby and then with her spare hand holding flossys hand 'hi beth' felicity smiled 'hey baby' I smiled in the mirror 'party' she said and I turned around to face her and got down on my knees 'come here' I said and she toddled over and plonked herself down 'today's special, we get to say goodbye to Jesy' I told her 'party' she said 'yeah babe, we are having a party' I nodded whilst stroking the braid in her long mousey hair 'you okay' mum asked 'no but I will be wont I, eventually' I said 'so proud of you' she said 'yeah thanks, I'm proud of you, I wonder how Isabella would be now if she was still alive' I sighed 'beautiful just like her older sister' she smiled '13th January already, that's 10 days since the passing of jess and Jake and 18 since Isabella, it hurts so much mum' I said 'I know babe but me and you we get through it, and we go back to work tomorrow and these little beauties start nursery, new beginnings are coming' she smiled 'thankyou' I said 'for' she asked 'everything, the girls mainly' I said taking harmony off her 'look I wouldn't of let them be split or left alone, I'm so honoured that I could help' she said 'me too because honestly without you I'd be a mess, these wouldn't know each other anymore and my life wouldn't be worth living..she's the best mummy in the world isn't she harmy' I said kissing her little forehead 'I do try' she said 'don't try any harder, you're doing the best job isn't she little floss' I said 'best mummy' she said hugging her legs and nikki cried 'don't cry mum, we love you us 3, so much, biological or not we couldn't ask for a better mum' I said hugging her as well. We went downstairs and the girls and John, Abbie and the kids were sat there 'hey squirt' John said standing up and coming over 'hey johnboy' I sighed 'it's been one hell of a ride in your short little life but you have overcome everything and got on with it and I couldn't be any prouder' he said hugging me 'I don't want to say goodbye to her, not yet' I sobbed 'hey look at me' he said lifting my chin up 'she will be so so so proud of you and what you're achieving, don't ever for a second doubt yourself she loved you so much babe and when you were down it made her down so seeing you like this is probably killing her, so for Jesy stop crying be happy and remember in a way she would want you too' he smiled wiping my cheeks 'but she's dead' I sobbed 'she was too beautiful for earth clearly, she's with mum and josh now and she'll be looking after baby Isabella for you, your mum will has taken on her children and in return she will have taken on baby isabella' he said and I just hugged him tight 'how can you be so positive' I asked 'because kid..Jesy would want us to be' he told me 'but I can't be strong, I loved her so much I can't hack the fact I'll never hear or see her again' I said 'death is a strange and horrible thing but don't worry we will be here to help' he said 'you live in London' I sighed 'yeah which gives you a reason to visit your home town still' he smiled 'and us we are a reason too' Leigh piped in and I turned to face the 3 girls 'of course, I love you girls' I said embracing them in a group hug 'just because jess isn't here with us now doesn't mean you can't come see us, family is forever' Jade said 'thankyou' I smiled 'I know I'd like you to come stay a few nights' perrie shrugged 'I'd like that' I said 'guys, Jesys here' Abbie said sadly and I pulled myself together and walked towards mum and the girls I grabbed a hold of felicities hand and we walked out the house together the funeral carried her white coffin, I was sad and numb there was flowers spelling Jesy on one side in black and white, she'd of wanted black and then on the other side it spelt out mum in purple and there was a little mix band made out of flowers it was so good, everyone was crying again then the two family cars pulled up 'right in the first one I was thinking me, the 3 younger girls and one of you girls then the other car the rest' mum said and everyone got into their cars.