Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 28

'Come on Libby' I was being shook by someone 'Jesus no' I said pulling the cover over me 'please just get up' she stressed 'Jessica I'm not going' I sighed 'fine but I'm in the studio all day you can watch the baby' she said and i just looked at her and nodded and she sighed and sat on the edge of my bed and reached up for my cheek 'things will get easier I promise' she said which started me off 'don't cry please for me' she said leaning in to hug me 'I collected my things out that room last night' i sighed 'don't worry you live here now and what's mine is yours and what's in this house is yours and what's in my purse is yours' she giggled and I hugged her back ten times fighter 'I just don't get why she's turned on me,I need her the most right now,she lives next flipping door and I haven't seen her since siris funeral which was 2 days ago how can you not see your neighbour for 2 whole days' I sighed 'she will need you before you need her' she said kissing my head 'I really need her now jess more than anything' I cried 'you have me you don't need her I promise I'm gunna be here from now till forever and you know that,your 14 still young and I'm never letting go' she said stroking my hair 'why jess' I asked and she pulled back

'Why what babe' she said

'Why do you want to be like a mum to me,ever since you where little all you've done is treat me like your own' i sighed

'Because I love you like you really are my own and always will,I'm not leaving you not now,not never' she said kissing my forehead

'Promise' I asked

'I promise and I also promise things are going to get easier and that moving in here is like living at home and living with me will be like living with mum I promise' she said hugging me

tighter than usual

'Why is my life full of emotional times' I said

'From now on it won't be,just me,you,flossy and Jordan as one big family' she said

'And my dad' I asked

'He hasn't contacted since Josh's funeral even then he hardly spoke,who needs him..not us you have me and Jordan and we will be the best parents to you we can' she said smiling asif she was proud of herself

'Im so proud of you jess,your 22 well 23 next month and you have already become part of the biggest girl band in the world,always working hard and also looking after two children one which isn't even yours and you still treat her as if she is' I smiled

'Because you are mine whether you came out of me or not,and I'm proud of you too babe' she said smiling so big.

I climbed out the shower and put on some underwear and clothes then dried my long hair,I sat looking at myself in the long mirror that was pinned to the wall,it was full length and white woodwork my name carved in the top 'Elizabeth-ebony nelson' with a little flower each side,I sat staring at myself and how much my life was a mess "you got bullied,you tried to kill yourself,you moved schools got bullied again,you went missing for 60 days everyone thought you where dead,you missed your nieces birth,your brother passed away,your bestfriend passed away,now you've lost your mum' everything was rushing through my mind,everything was racing so fast I stood and swiped everything off my dressing table and chest of drawers and then just fell to the floor screaming and crying.

'What happened' I heard as the door swung open and two out of breath figures stood in my door way

'I hate my life' I cried

'You don't hate it your just stressed and down' Jordan said as he picked me up and put me on my bed for Jesy then he left

'Why did you do this' she asked putting one hand on my knee but I didn't answer I just kept looking ahead of me at the wall 'Eliza' she said why is she using my nickname from Jordan 'are you going to answer me' she said and I just wrapped my arms around her 'take me away from here' I cried so hard 'shhh shhh it's okay don't you worry' she said stroking my back 'I'm staying home today,I'm going to book us a holiday for a short break away from here,I'll need to phone the school and pack' she said letting go and walking out of my room.

After my little outburst this morning I'm fine and feeling ok,jess has been to the school and explained everything and they are okay with it and Jordan he's booked 12 days off and so has jess and because Jesy has 12 days off starting tomorrow so does the other 3 girls. I tidied my room up just after I'd calmed down and then helped out with the baby and watched her whilst jess went and did a few bits.

'Just us' I heard Jordan and jess say as the door shut and they walked in 'orite' I smiled whilst feeding felicitie her yoghurt 'yeah where good are you' Jordan asked and I nodded

'I'm ok now this little princess cheered me up' I smiled 'I have something that will cheer you up more' Jesy smiled pulling out a piece of paper and handing it to me.

'Where going to Tenerife' I smiled

'Yep 12 days we fly tonight at 10pm' Jordan smiled whilst sticking up his thumbs

'Just us' I asked

'Just us four in our villa but perrie,jade and Leigh are coming' jess smiled

'Thats good a family holiday,away from all the trouble I smiled kissing flossy little head' and let out a breathe of relief

'So go pack' she smiled and took the baby off me

I got out the pink suitcase from the shared room and wheeled it back to my room,hmmm where to start,shorts,I went to my drawer and pulled out all of them somewhere lounging around the pool shorts and some denim and some where going out shorts and had matching blazers I folded them and put them in my case. I then folded a few vest tops,normal tops and a few going out tops neatly and stuck them in. I put 4 dresses and 3 skirts in and then the blazers to my shorts and some underwear and then 5 bikinis,my tooth brush and a few other essential things,in my hand luggage I packed my phone charger and my ipad charger and put my notepad in. I walked to Jess's room 'hello' I smiled

'Hey babe got everything' she asked packing a smaller suitcase for flossy

'I think' I said sitting on her floor

'Clothes'

'Check'

'Bikinis'

'Check'

'Pyjamas'

'Check'

'Tooth brush and paste'

'Check'

'Underwear'

'Check'

'Makeup'

'Check'

'Ipad and chargers for everything'

'Check'

'Shoes'

'No' I laughed

'Idiot how you gunna walk around and I'll be taking the straighteners,hair dryer shampoo ect so don't worry' she smiled

'Its 5:45pm now we will be leaving here at 6:15ish for food before hitting the airport so go and pack your shoes and double check everything please' she said whilst kissing my forehead and letting me walk off,I'm going for a nice long break and hopefully everything will be fine again when I'm home well not fully fine because I will still be without my bestfriend and brother but hopefully I can get back on track.