Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 8

Jesy's P.O.V.

It's been 8 days since Libby tried to commit suicide,the doctors said she might not last 48 hours but here she is 8 days later still fighting strong,our Australia trip is cancelled till we agree to go which will hopefully be soon,mums had to go back to work or she could face the boot same with john and josh so me and the girls have vowed to stay with Libby,yes unfortunately she didn't wake up like doctors expected,they've run more tests and it shows her insides where pretty rotted but fighting it. She could wake up any day at any minute to be honest. We have too it in turns to stop the night,jade doesn't really like being away from home but she's stayed the most out of us all,when where away with the team she has her own bedroom pillow and her teddies. Perrie has been with her during the day everyday hasn't moved for food,perrie and Libby are very close and as much as it's destroyed us all it's hurt perrie lots too. Perries also worried about her little sister she thinks she might do the same but Caitlin reassures her she isn't getting bullied but Perries just over nervous.

It's 16th August and the school is on summer break,the bully's never owned up,I mean who would but there's going to be an investigation when they go back apparently,Libby's got into London Central school for her last year and mums house is coming along very nicely,I've payed for it to be refurbished like the kitchen and bathroom so she has a nicer bathroom than it was,Libby's room is finished courtesy of josh and Jordan,it's lovely,I wish I have it and there's also a little surprise in there that will make her feel at home more put it that way and make her feel more close to me. I'm currently sat going through emails and replying to the summer festivals that we can attend,we have one on the 24th depending on Libby,I really thought the girls would be a bit uptight about cancelling things so I told them to do it without me but they all insisted they stayed off to which is lovely of them. Management have said we can have till the end of September off so basically the whole of August and September but when we go back it's straight to Australia then America so we wouldn't be home till December break but I don't know if I can do that. Or we can start back at work next Monday fly to oz on the Tuesday do our week stay then come come for a month then go to America for 4 weeks at the beginning of October then come home at the end of October beginning of November then stay in London studios and do the Christmas gigs then have a week off. My option is the second one and so is the girls but I think management want the first one but we full on refuse.

It's 5pm and me and the girls are going back to mums for a break,mum finishes at half 5 and will go straight to the hospital from work. We are all really hungry and half hour on her own won't hurt her and she wouldn't mind I just know it. We all went down the hall and our taxi was already waiting.

Libby's P.O.V.

I'm awake,i really am,I haven't opened my eyes or moved,I couldn't not when Jesy and the girls where there. Listening to them speak to me and tell me everything today has hurt me,made me feel bad made me wish I actually wasn't here,it really hurts to see them so upset why did I have to be so stupid. I only woke up about an hour ago,I'm still not functioned I don't have any energy to move anyways. I hear the door open and just layed there motionless still.

'Hey libs babe you orite kid,you need to wake up,we love and miss you so much,it's been nearly 9 days since we heard your voice and seen those big hazel eyes,wake up soon' that wasn't my mam,that sounded like Jordan I thought my mam was coming,I felt the tears rolling out of my eyes,I needed to speak,put there minds at rest. I went to open my mouth 'jor' was all that came out before things went dark and the machines started beeping,Jordan shouting for help,I heard it all,I hear people running in and out,I hear Jordan being told to stand at the door. This is scary,all I did was try to speak am I dying,the black light is becoming more lighter each time,I feel my self falling,I see myself falling Infact,I land on a patch of grass. Hang on I'm sure I've seen this place before,I haven't nope but I've seen those two girls before,Ella and talia.

E: Libby I thought I told you to go back

L: I did go back,I woke up I tried to speak to Jordan but everything went woooo

E: your body,it's failed

L: how I have been awake for an hour

E: the doctors are bringing you back your guna feel a shock in a minute but that's the shocker machine thingy I don't have a clue what it's called

L: what happens then

E: on the second shock I want you to push on the floor as hard as you can

L: why

E: I promise you will be safe

L: but

E: 1,2,3 NOW

I did as she said and strangely somehow I was back,I heard the machines and doctors talking 'well done guys she's back and awake,give her time to sleep,she will fully wake up when she feels the need to' I was safe,Ella was right,how and wow and I'm so confused. I don't even know where I wanna be right now,here or heaven. Jordan came back in the room and held my hand and pressed a kiss on my forehead 'wow I thought we'd lost you again' I let my hands grip around his 'no I'm safe now' I spoke,oh my god I spoke,I did it.

J: Libby

L: jord..

J: no shh don't stress yourself,I'm so happy your away I need to phone jess

L: mum..my mum

J: she has to work over babe that's why I'm here

I couldn't bring myself to move or talk more,it hurt and felt weird,i didn't even open my eyes to talk.

J: jess,you need to get up here now it's Libby,good and bad..just hurry leave the girls if you have to..love you to babe

I felt his presence near me again,he held my hand and I squeezed his back as tight as I could,which wasn't tight.

J: I'm so happy your awake everyone's been going crazy without you

L: I Ella..seen her

J: huh,Ella my Ella what how

L: in a white...field she helped me back to earth

J: oh

L: I'm serious,she helped me...this time too I give her a big hug off you

J: thankyou,rest save your energy

I couldn't help but fall asleep,my eyes where just to heavy,it wasn't the wake up call I insisted on,I didn't want to sleep but I needed to sleep,I've been asleep 8 days and here I am shutting my eyes again.

I wasn't asleep for long,I was court off guard,I heard the end of Jordan and jesy's conversation 'she told me she seen Ella,I'm not lying Jesy she had some mad thing and I spoke to her and was crying and she told me she was safe,she squeezed my hand' "Jordan,she looks pretty much weak and asleep to me,I had my hopes up for nothing" wow she doesn't believe him,my turn to step in,who ever was holding my hand was about to get a squeeze.

Je: jord she's just squeezed me she really did

J: told you that's how it started off with me,talk to her..go on

Je: hey babe I miss you,your voice,your smile,your hazel eyes Jordan told me about nearly loosing you again,wow I don't know what I'd have done,but please wake up I need you and we all need to get back to London and leave Romford behind leave the bully's behind

L: love...to

Je: I'm sure she said love to which must meet love you to,Jordan we need the doctor go call for one

J: be back soon babe

L: I'm safe jess,I'm ok

Je: keep talking,you will get stronger the more you talk

L: it hurts...I miss you lots

Je: I can't believe your awake,I missed you so much I need to call mum,john,josh the girls everyone

I was happy she knew I was awake but at the same time I felt shit everytime I talked,it hurt and I was far to weak,my body needs to strengthen up.