Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 22

I crawled out of my bed and literally crawled to my en suite,I was hanging,we went to a party last night well everyone from school to celebrate the high school musical show,we'd done 3 days of performances and now it was all over. I didn't go to lanzarote with dad because 1) Jesy,john and josh had drummed bullshit into my mams head and she said I couldn't go at all and 2) the show was a week after they flew out so I couldn't go either way. The party was at my friends called reegan she was in the show she's 19 this year but everyone in the show went and some of her friends and even my big brother josh for some reason,he was all over Siri which was creepy but she's 18 this year so she can do what she pleases,everyone was drunk,carter and me are still together,it's been just over a month nearly two months since me and carter went missing and just over 4 months since felicitie was born. I argued with jesy last month and that was the last time I'd seen her and felicitie she didn't even come to my show I don't know why she hasn't come around,she seemed okay when she picked me up from Perries,I know she's been rehearsing for her upcoming salute tour but not at night times,mams had felicitie during the day whilst I've been at school but Jordan takes her from 4pm when I finish which is weird. It has been like 4 weeks but I still miss flossy soooo much and Jesy sort of I'm still angry I know we live next door but she's actually locked her bedroom door on her side so I can't go threw and my mam said I'm not to go next door either.

After the party Lastnight I don't even know what happened I remember being put into bed by my mum and that is all,now I'm paying this morning,I brushed my teeth and put some clean underwear and my hollister tracksuit and Nike blazers today and my hair that's just going up in a messy bun. I took myself down the stairs and my mam was cleaning the living room 'you look rough' she said 'I feel it can we go to McDonald's' I asked and she nodded and put her cleaning cloths in the kitchen and grabbed her keys and purse 'what time is it' I asked '11:45' she said I nodded and got in the car. We where driving and I had to break silence I hate silence 'where is Jesy today' I asked and she just shrugged 'I miss them' I said 'I know but she's being so stubborn still' she sighed 'this is only making things worse' I said ' i know but she won't listen to me'. We pulled up at the car and went in to order and sit in. I ordered a cheese burger meal and mum got a chicken burger meal,before I could even start on my meal mums phone rang

'Hello'

'Yes just In McDonald's with ebby she's hungover'

'Haha yes end of show party'

'Ebby did josh come home last night' I shook my head no

'No he never why'

'Libby did you see him'

'No I don't remember out apart from you putting me to bed'

'No she doesn't remember out..yeah loveyou too'

'Wait no I seen him and Siri all over each other then after that you had to come get me' I said

'Yeah he was all over Siri apparently'

'Okay babe bye'.

Mum put her phone away and started eating her food,she looked worried,more than worried I'd say,I put a fry in my mouth and finished off before talking

'Are you okay mum' she didn't reply

'Mum what's happened' I asked worried

'Can we take this food home please' she asked

'Of course if you tell me what's going on' I asked actually very concerned

'Jesy needs to talk to you' she said

We got our food and put it back in the bags and headed to the car,I suddenly don't feel too hungry but my heads still pouncing,we drove home in utter silence I didn't want to break this silence either,I feel the news she wants to say could be anything. We pulled up at home and I got out and carried the food bags and went inside I went straight through to the kitchen and set our food out ready to eat,mum was on the phone again,she walked through and took at seat infront of me and began eating 'are you okay babe' she asked 'yes why' I asked 'you don't look good' she laughed 'just hungover haha' I giggled she threw her fries away and ate her burger,I heard the front door go,I guess it was jess,I stayed in my seat until she got in here. I finished the last bit of my burger and took a sip of my coke and sat there staring at mum who had just stud up to leave 'I will give you two some space' she said and walked out just came over and sat In mums seat 'erm hi' I said feeling awkward first time in like 4 weeks I've seen her she just smiled and replied 'babe' I didn't know what to do.