Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 6

Man,I haven't seen Jesy in 4 weeks not even a text,she's been to America and is now in Japan and it costs to much to text her out there. Their Japan trip finishes tomorrow then there heading straight for Australia,wow they really are taking over the world. I've done as jesy's said and kept taking my Ritalin to keep me calm and it's worked except for school,I am still getting shit off some of the scrawny little dickheads in there. Oh it's worse now because I was in an article for Perries birthday,I really want to talk to Jesy about something that I can't talk to my mam about because well it's awkward. Jesy understands me more I guess. The thing is I thought taking my Ritalin and keeping calm would help me through school and keep me backing down from the bully's but I was wrong,I keep calm but I let them throw it at me I just take it and don't bite back and they know I'm just letting them do it so they make it worse and I'm getting to the point where I officially don't want to be here no more and that's not saying it out of attention that's truly how I honestly feel,I've never ever felt this low. My mam and brothers have been praising me this last month because of my behaviour at home and around the house. Mams let out a sigh of relief that she can take me places without a scenario occurring,the only reason I've been so quiet is because I'm broken on the inside,severely broken now. I just can't take no more.

It's 2:45pm,I've just finished school. It's August 9th and we finish in 3 days for summer break,we don't finish in July no more like last year as they made the Christmas holidays longer. We finish on the 12th August and go back September 20th so it's still a decent ammount of time off I guess. I'm walking down the maths stairs and I can hear Isobel and marnie behind me snickering,great then I feel someone step on the back on shoe and I go falling down the last 2 steps,I take it like a man and pick myself back up luckily I have no cuts just a sore elbow they giggle at me and I carry on walking 'oi fatty where's your ugly sister' 'using her for fame eh' 'she not speaking to you no more since you treat her like shit' 'I read an article the other week and she was saying how much trouble you are and that she tends to keep her space because your a bitch anyways you don't even look out like your family' wow hurtful,I ignored them and let tears prick my eyes. I took the cemetery route home,you cute over a wall and through the quarry as people call it then down a street and your there. They came that way to,they live the street behind me,I picked up my speed to get over the wall before them and it worked then I started running through the quarry;so did they. Isobel stopped me and marnie pulled my pony tail 'ouch' I shouted at her and she laughed. Okay so I'm in the middle of a quarry with two girls I have so much hate for and I'm probably going to get battered,great. Isobel chucked my maths book on the floor and stamped on it ripping a few of the pages,the page I just learnt and the page I was going to revives ready for year 11 in September. Marnie wripped my tie by penutting me and Isobel took my keys off me and stamped on the keyring of me and Jesy and then handed me it back,wow I was heartbroken literally. They walked of as if nothing had happened,I picked the book up and placed it gently in my bag along,I took my tie off and put that in the bag and carried on walking,I look rough,my hairs a mess from marnie pulling at it and I'm pretty sure my cheeks are tear stained. I ran all the way home after that,I got in slammed the door and ran straight up stairs 'hey love' I heard mum shout from the distance of the kitchen. I got to my room and slammed the door shut. I looked over at the door on the left side of my room;jesy's room was on the other side,we had a door put in back when I was 10 so she could sneak in during the night without waking my brothers up. Then they moved out and Jesy got famous and we just left it there. Her rooms locked out on the outside but my door isn't,she only let's me in there,I usually go in there for comfort. I sighed and locked my door and also jesy's comparable door just incase me mam opened jesy's room and came into my room through that door,I'd had enough. I grabbed my note pad and pen and began writing letters. I heard footsteps and then a knock at the door,I sniffed and shouted I'm fine I was just getting a shower and she went back off downstairs.