Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 16

February 1st 2014 and I'm still on this island with carter,27 days and counting by drawing a tally on the rock,we've not seen one plane fly past since being here so I've given up hope we must be to far out for anyone to fly past this island,im going to die on an island with a jerk with no family or without even saying hello to my niece,speaking of niece Jesy due date was 6 days ago but she could of already her and I don't have the slightest little clue. I know they haven't give up looking;well I like to think they haven't give up looking.

JANIS P.O.V.

It's been a month,she's been gone,January 5th and it's now February 1st 27 days I've not seen her for,Carter's mum went home,the Trinidad authority's told us to go home but I'm not,I'm staying I will bring her home. I have a granddaughter now,felicitie-Ella Elizabeth banjo' she's gorgeous,she looks just like jess but with tanned skin, she was born January 9th at 2:35am the nurses said due to stress and worry she came early but she was a happy healthy 6lb exactly baby. She's what 23 days old now,nearly a month,she's got blue eyes,takes after Libby I guess, Libby is the spitting image of jesy's except she has blue eyes and well felicitie has blue eyes and really dark skin and a little blondey mouse coloured bunch of hair growing on top of her head, I haven't even met her yet,Jesy sends me pictures to update me,she would not let me come home she wanted me to stay and find Libby so I did. John,Rachael and Layton went home yesterday but Abbie's still here with me she's abit drained but aren't we all. Today I need to go for a meeting with the SPU out here because they've called the search down and downgraded it to search and recovery which means they have no hope,they are searching for their body's in other words but I refuse I want them to search every depth of water and search all ends of the Caribbean Sea.

'Miss nelson this way please' a women instructed me I followed her and sat down,I handed her the paper work and kept going over everything and anything until I was blue in the face she started speaking 'miss nelson I'm sorry,our search teams refuse to do much more since down grading the search,they're looking for the body's and that's all,it's time to go home miss nelson' she sighed,they are giving up they are looking for body's now,she's alive, I know she is. This SPU worker is right it's time for home I've searched the whole island by foot and I've found nothing not even any evidence...standing in the airport waiting to bored our plain I looked behind me thinking about how I was leaving this island for good and how my baby is still on this island somewhere,I took out my passport and boarded the plane,in just 4 hours time I will be home,back to reality,meeting my granddaughter for the first time seeing my family for the first time in a month having to face Libby's friends basically just having to face anything that brings back memory's of her,even her bedroom,I need to start packing it up,her clothes I can give to the local charity shop her pictures of her and jess can go to jesy's or go in the girls joint bedroom. Everything doesn't seem real,I said I wouldn't give up but if the rescue teams have downgraded the search and the police have said it's highly likely they are alive then that doesn't give me much hope but there is something telling me she is still alive but I just don't know.

Pulling up in a taxi outside my home with Abbie, I see my garden is full of balloons,flowers,little ornaments and laminated notes. It seem weird being back in cold weather after a month of hotness,I pick up a few rotted flowers and read some of the notes,some are from friends and family others are from the public,my heart melted again this isn't going to be easy. It was only a few months back she wanted to be dead and now she might actually be just as she got happy. I look over to see Jordan's car in the driveway,they must be in. I take my suitcase up to my front door and left myself in,the coldness hits me,the quietness hits me,everything hits..that I'll be living in this house alone from now on,I went up the stairs and into Libby's room,wow pictures of her beautiful face everywhere I went over to the compatable door to go through to jesy's,the beds messed a bit,jess has been in here,I opened up jesy's door to see a cute white Moses basket by Jordan's side of the bed,he must of been doing night shifts. I seen small pink vests folded up on the side ready to be put away,I smiled and made my way down stairs I went Into the kitchen where I heard chatting I seen perrie and jade stud chatting away 'hi girls' I said they both came and swallowed me in a hug 'how are you' jade asked 'did you bring Libby home' perrie cried, god bless her she loves Libby so much,I shook my head in disappointment and they cried and followed me into the living room where Jesy was sat with her head in Leigh's shoulder and Jordan was sat on his ps4 playing FIFA and Leigh had hold of this small bundle wrapped in a purple blanket. Jordan noticed me first and paused his game then Jesy looked behind me 'mum oh my god' she got up and I pulled her in tight and I could feel her tears dripping on my shoulder 'you didn't find her did you' she asked 'no the SPU have downgraded the search to a recovery,there looking for hers and Carter's body not them,the police told me not to look positive and to come home,they basically told me she's gone' I cried more she pulled back and looked me in my eyes 'we will find her I promise' I wiped my eyes and looked at Leigh who was also crying 'do you wanna meet felicitie she wants to meet her nan' Jesy asked I nodded and sat down and Leigh passed me her,she was so small for nearly a month old,I loved her so much.

Libby's P.O.V.

Laying on the sand I sighed and carter came behind me slid next to me 'hello prom queen' he smiled I just laughed 'come on live a little' I looked at him shocked and he laughed 'how can I live a little I'm stuck on an island with you and have been for the last 27 days I'm sick of eating fruit and fish and drinking water' I giggled 'what time is it' he asked '8:45pm and don't count on my watch much longer,the batter will die out eventually' I told him he got up and took his now 3 quarters skinny jeans off,we had to fun our pants with his pen knife as it was to hot,I have denim shorts instead of skinnys now. He jumped into the water of the lagoon and asked if I was coming in '5 minutes' I moaned 'come now' he smiled widely,what a freak I thought. I took off my shorts so I was just in my bikini and jumped in the lagoon after him he swam over to me and I splashed him a bit and he grabbed me by my waist and kept hold of me,awkward,I soon let my legs wrap around his body and he put his forehead against mine,my heart was pounding,oh no and bamn his lips crashed onto mine,I kissed back and it felt so good. He pulled back and let go and we started messing in the water before I got out and stood in the last remaining bit of the sun to get dry,I can't believe how warm it is out here for night time. I slid my shorts back on and sat on the coats we where using as blankets I was thinking of my family and if they had given up,I mean it has been just over a month. I was thinking of what Jesy and fizzy would be doing,I imagine she's born by now,I can imagine her looking like Jesy but with Jordan's tanned skin and his dark curly hair I bet she's beautiful,nice big brown eyes like her mum too. Then I imagined what my mum would be doing,is she on Trinidad looking,is she back in England upset,who knows..not me. I sighed and layed my head down. I felt two hands slip around my waist,I turned round to see carter smiling at me I smiled back and he put his lips on mine for the second time today but I lent in and I could feel him come on top of me,he was now staring down on me I lent up and kissed him again and tugged at my shorts,I wasn't thinking straight and I let him have full access. Who knew I'd loose my virginaty on an island to some jerk who I think I'm falling in love with after spending a month with him and probably many more to come.

JESYS P.O.V.

I can't believe she's gone,well not gone hopefully but she isn't in England,I haven't seen her for a month and I miss her tons,I was really looking forward to the neon lights tour with her to get out bond back but not now,I will still be heading out to America I can't bale out,like management said it's a tough time for our family but it's been over a month now I need to carry on and take my mind off it,little fizzy as Libby was adamant she was calling her get called flossy by her dad but fizzy or felicitie by me and the girls,I can't believe this time we may never actually see Libby again,life isn't fair. It's 4:00pm and I've just finished making tea for everyone with Leigh's help of course and my mams finished feeding fizzy and wants to bath and bed her tonight but I'll be helping to keep an eye on mum she's not right. We set off for America in 6 days and I am so not looking forward to it,we don't get home till march 18th that's nearly two whole months gone,felicitie will be nearly 3 months old when we come back and still won't know her aunty Elizabeth and it makes my skin crawl with fear to know she's out there alone and scared or even worse dead. I dished out for everyone and perrie only nibbled again,this isn't like perrie she's been nibbling or not eating at all,my mum didn't touch hers and me,leigh,jade and Jordan are all of ours. I went up the bathroom after washing up only to hear mum talking so I waited outside 'your aunty Libby would of loved you,blue eyes like her,you are beautiful just like your mummy your gunna have a great life baby I just wish aunty Libby was here to love you like we do,nannys gotta clear aunty Libby's room out when I get back next door,your mummy can have all the picutres except one I need to keep that,Libby's favourite and her clothes I was going to give them away but I want to keep them' I walked in and she smiled up at me 'mum your not clearing her room out,she will be home soon' she just shook her head,why isn't she thinking positive,she needs to,she needs to be strong for Libby for everyone.

LIBBYS P.O.V.

Wow,that hurt...we where lying cuddled up on the blankets,it was sticking to him I could feel it,I was crying a bit 'why you crying' he asked 'just thinking..I think of home and my family and I miss them so much but then I think of where I am now and I kind of like it' I told him 'don't worry,if we don't get found this will be our life and I will make sure your safe,just me and you' I smiled up at him and he kissed my nose 'go to sleep Libby' I kept my arm around his waist and my head on his chest and fell asleep trying to ignore the antagonising pain ripping through my below. I really hope we get found soon.