Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 18

I've been home 3 days and honestly it's still so weird to be waking up and seeing my bedroom and my family,carter came round last night,well snuck around and knocked on the door so quiet but I heard it and got up,mum was in bed flat out and Jesy had popped around whilst Jordan watched fizzy. I haven't really spent time with her I've give her a few kisses but not properly held her or fed her or out. I remember asking him to come round tonight for a little party my Mams throwing for friends and family to come see me and his mums coming,he said he would just so he could see me then he leaned in to kiss me but something made me pull away and shut the door. It was so awkward with jess here and then him coming,I remember sighing and flopping on the couch 'I'm so confused' I said to jess and she flopped on the left side of me 'why' she asked whilst shoving a piece of popcorn in her mouth 'everything at the moment you know..us,fizzy,carter...why are you eating popcorn at 11:55pm' I giggled she just shrugged and shuffled closer to me 'what do you mean,us and fizzy and carter' she laughed 'well me and you the other day I feel weird around you after calling you mum,I mean fizzy I can't bring myself to hold her and I don't know why and carter I can't stop thinking of him' I put my head on her shoulder and sighed 'well you can call me mum whenever I don't mind and fizzy you and her will get that bond and carter girl you spent 60 days with him and lost your virginaty to him of course you can't stop thinking of him' she laughed I was serious and she doesn't seem to be taking it in.

I woke up on the sofa with my head on something hard but warm and my arms where dead from being wrapped around jesy's waist all night,my head was facing her body but resting on her shoulder and her head was leaning on then top of mine,I heard giggling and snapping,I turned around to see Jordan and my mam with their phones out and well Jordan had felicitie in his other arm 'oi' I groaned and moved my arm from jesy's waist and fell off the couch 'delete them now' I groaned more and layed on the floor and didn't have any intention of moving until I heard 'woah woah woah Jesy' and then she was on top of me,great she only caught me I was laughing like mad and so was Jordan 'I videod that' my mum said haha she thinks she's funny,jess got up and rubbed her head 'did I fall asleep here' she asked I nodded and stood up and give fizzy a kiss. 'Wanna come town with me and felicitie I need a outfit for tonight's party' jess asked I nodded 'let me go for a shower first' I nodded 'well durgh I need to go get bathed and dressed and do felicitie too' she laughed I just nodded and ran off upstairs hmmm bathroom or wet room..hard to decide I laughed to myself,wet room,I've missed this so much. I washed my hair and shaved and had a wash and turned the sprinkler off and grabbed my towel and walked down to my room and shut the door behind me.

'Ermmmmm red tartan leggings,black flowey top and my black river island boots to finish the outfit off' I said to myself,why I was talking to myself I don't know,I turned around out of my closet and my mum was sat on my bed 'ah' I said,she made me jump literally 'did I scare you' she laughed I nodded and walked over to my underwear draw whilst she sat on my bed,I had to put my underwear on with my towel on all awkward because she's was here. 'I can't believe how tanned you are or how your hair is still so blonde' she smiled 'well I have only been home what 3 days' I laughed 'are you sure you wanna go out today' she asked nervously 'mum yes I'm ready plus I think this will be a good time to bond better again with jess and felicitie' she just smiled and nodded and got up to leave 'are you sure' she asked 'yes now leave' I commanded. I got changed and blow dried my hair and straightened it and middle partend it,I slipped my shows on and finished it with a leather jacket.

'Can I have some money please' I asked nervously

'Why you so nervous I'm your mum and to be honest you deserve some sort of reward for surviving out there' she laughed

'Ha' it just came out

She handed me £50 from her and then my note from my nana,there was a note and £150 in cash,I smiled and wiped the tears that where falling from my eyes,I miss her so much and I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye. 'Dont cry she will be very proud of you' my mam said whilst hugging me 'it's a good job I have no makeup on' I slightly smiled,I pulled back and headed for the door 'bye' I shouted and went next door to Jess's.