Life of Libby nelson

Chapter 3

Yesterday was a big blur to me now,all the arguments,the fighting,the meetings..everything.

I layed in bed in my room at Jessica's,I loved my room here but I missed my room back at home but I can't go home yet,I want to I still have not forgiven jess in any way! I do miss my mam but she doesn't miss me I know,I've been gone 4 days and still HAVE to stay here for another week at least,I can go back to school in 3 days but that's obviously not happening. The sun was shining through my room window,I got out and tip toed across the laminate flooring so jess didn't know I was up,I pulled back the curtains and tip toed back to bed. Laying there thinking of everything,then it came to me,I met my dad yesterday and he honestly wasn't worth my time,I should of listened but then again being told your a messed up kid and that your on the last straw who else could I have gone to if I was kicked out...after 15 minutes of thinking everything through I decided to get ready,I used my en suite to get a wash and do my teeth then I put on my underwear and some leather look leggings a white crop top and my black doc martins and then my leather jacket to finish but I don't need that on yet,I began straightening my hair again it wouldn't take as long as I did it yesterday,I put a coat of makeup on lightly and then grabbed my phone and went down. Jesy wasn't in the living room so I walked through to the kitchen and she was sat on her phone with Jordan and one end of the table and my mam at the other,great.

Je: morning libs

M: morning I guess

Je: your still angry aren't you

M: of course,I'm messed up remember

J: wait..Libby who said your messed up girl

M: Jesy..Jordan I'm surprised she didn't tell you,after everything she said to me yesterday she should be ashamed whether I get angry over the top or not

Je: I said sorry Elizabeth

M: yeah..well sometimes sorry doesn't cut it jess

Ja: wait messed up...

Je: oh I said it out of anger oh my

Ja: she might be a problem child with hellish anger issues and an attitude problem but she's far from messed up

M: mam don't start Infact no one start,she said sorry

Ja: you can't come down and have a go at her then everyone else have a go and then stick up for her..mixed feelings Libby you either hate her or you don't not one rule one minute and one rule the next babe

M: mam don't start please,yesterday was bad enough,I can do what I want,she's my sister I might argue with her but if anyone starts giving it Wigan at her or hurts her 14 or not I will always be on her side no MATTER what I love her to the moon and back

J: thanks Elizabeth but I'm gunna burst your bubble now,who did you meet yesterday

M: oh jess how low,you stoop so low sometimes I wonder if you even are my sister

Ja: who did you meet

J: you probably no

Ja: no please tell me...john

M: you mean MY dad that didn't even know I was a girl for god sake...yes but I don't think it will happen again

J: it bloody won't missy I mean it look what happened yesterday he isn't your dad

M: what you mean him nearly hurting you and me jumping in the middle and getting knocked down and hurt myself to stop my sister being hurt and to stop me seeing my worst fear happen right infront of me

Jo: what you mean kiddo your worst fear

M: well Jordan, jess getting hurt in any way at all is my worst fear along with spiders and clowns but that's my worst one seeing the one I love the most hurt,it's not a nice feeling,everyone must love seeing me hurt as I'm hurting everyday..your all here now well minus josh and john but I'm gunna say it now I may be that gobby,messed up,problem 14 year old child but I am still human,I still have feelings,I behave the way I do because part of it's anger issues and the others jealousy,everyday I go to school and get bullied and I bully them back to my strongest ability and yet it's all my fault,I come home and get grief off my brothers,mum and only sister and let it hit me at full pelt without showing I care,showing no emotions hurts it really does,I show that im not bothered and that I couldn't give a shit what my family's throwing at me I storm off to my room and lock the door but behind that closed door I'm sat on my bed sobbing my heart out or sat behind the door getting ready to harm my body in a way that I shouldn't,i admit my behaviour sometimes is off limits..you may be my mum,sister and brother in law and they may be my brothers but you don't have a clue what happens in school and when I'm out and about,I look like this big girl who can stand up for her self and goes to party's and is popular but the truth is I'm not..I do get bullied and I'm not that popular I do have a friend with benefits but that stopped a few weeks back,Deep down I'm not a bad girl I'm a little nerd that tried her best at school even if I don't show it and I don't feel it's right to do the things I do but I do them anyways..I have feelings too..I'm a human too,please just stop let me be for one day,maybe if you stop giving me grief everyday I'd be a better person and my family wouldn't hate me,I am only human we all make mistakes