Before you disappear

Chapter 52

The hotel room was a lot bigger and more luxurious than the ones I usually stayed in. It wasn't just a bed, desk, closet and simple bathroom. This room had an adjoining seating area behind an arched opening with a dark blue velvet couch, two matching velvet chairs, a coffee table and a coffee bar, right next to a huge balcony with French doors.

It felt like I was living in a palace room, instead of an hotel room. I'd never seen such luxurious rooms before, especially since the hotel, from the outside, didn't even look that expensive. Sure, it had marble floors, wide spiraling staircases and beautiful chandeliers hanging from the ceiling, but who would've guessed the rooms would keep that same level of luxury? I'd seen hotels like that before, but their rooms would always downgrade the level of luxury for me.

After Sehun had left me here, I hadn't moved from the spot I'd been standing while he talked over the essential rules in how to keep a low profile. To be honest, most of what he said seemed logical but perhaps I missed one or two things since I was in such an awe about this room.

This must cost a fortune.

The thought triggered a sting of guilt. Could I really just accept this room, without offering to pay for it? It didn't seem right. Of course I knew they'd rented the whole floor, so it had already been paid for, but still... I was brought up with the idea that you can't take things for granted and it's best to just offer to pay even if they might wave it away. "If you don't offer to pay, they might see you as a leech," my mom said once and that had stuck with me. I wasn't a leech. Never wanted to be one either. I was an independent woman and I could take care of myself.

Though I don't think I'd be able to afford one night in this room, let alone three, unless I get myself in debt on my credit card.

Nervously, I chewed on my lower lip as I thought about how to proceed. Perhaps I was overthinking this way too much.

I sighed. Why couldn't I just enjoy this moment, instead of making this about keeping the balance?

I just don't want him to think I take things for granted.

I hadn't forgotten the fact that I was in a really weird position. In fact, I was so much aware of this, that it triggered all kinds of insecurities in me. I was on high alert and my anxiety was right up there as well.

I took a deep breath, feeling the air fill up my lungs and my body shivering as I exhaled slowly. I just needed to keep my head cool and take it one step at a time. There was no need to think about anything except right now. And right now, I was alone and standing still in the middle a beautiful hotel room with a bag in my hand.

Looking down at the bag, I decided to make myself comfortable for the time being. I didn't have a lot of stuff with me, but the stuff I did have could be sorted in the closet and bathroom. So, I placed the bag onto the king sized bed which, and zipped it open. I took out one set of clothes, two pairs of socks, a bra and some underwear – my cheeks heated up thinking Jungkook had touched my underwear – and some toiletries. I stored my clothes in the closet, then proceeded to the bathroom with my toiletries.

Opening the door, I had expected the luxury to continue, but seeing the actual bathroom made me gasp. Two sinks on top of a marble counter, topped with brass faucets and two mirrors hanging above it, framed in the same brass color. A bath, big enough to fit two people. A walk-in shower with rain shower head and - given the many buttons - a shower massage system on top of it.

Definitely not a room I could ever afford.

It did make me wonder if this was the level of normal for BTS. Were these kinds of rooms normal for Kpop idols? Would they be offended if it was anything less than this?