Before you disappear

Chapter 72

The shower had been exactly what I needed. It slowed my thoughts, my body cool down and my breaths went from short and shallow to deep and peaceful.

I had successfully managed to stop overthinking the situation and being inside Jungkook's body, and instead enjoyed the shower as though it was just me in my own body. There were no strange thoughts when I undressed or when my hands, filled with body wash, touched my chest and thighs. Once the shower was over, a few of those thoughts did arise but I was quick to toss them aside.

Jungkook was in the same boat as me. We'd both been here before. There was nothing to be embarrassed about, nothing to feel weird about.

I've been here before. His body is not new to me.

Though some parts were.

After getting dressed, I reached out to the door handle but stopped before pressing it down. What would Jungkook be doing right now? Would he have fallen asleep? I did remember feeling quite sleepy when I woke up. It didn't seem like a far stretch for him to have fallen back asleep again.

I shook my head.

It seemed more logical that he would stay awake, since our switch meant we had things to discuss. Things that couldn't wait until morning where they'd probably have things on their schedule. Things to do. People to see.

All things I had to do, and I needed to be prepared for that. Jungkook would help me, I was sure of that, but still, in the end, I would have to go through it by myself. He couldn't be with me and guide me through the day.

I took a deep breath. I would manage – somehow. I did it before. I could do it again.

As I exited the bathroom and turned towards the bed where I'd left Jungkook, I was surprised to find it empty. Where did he go?

"I'm in here," a voice called from the living room area.

I turned around the corner, finding Jungkook on the sofa with my phone in his hands.

"What are you doing?"

"Listening to your playlist," he said, a smile forming on his face. "That's okay, right?"

I tilted my head, looking at him as me. It was funny to see myself from the outside. The softness in my eyes. The small almost apologetic smile on my face.

I nodded. "It's fine."

My face softened even more and it hit me how cute that made me look.

And then I shook my head, confused. It was him who made my face look like that. Who made my eyes soft, and my smile sweet and cute. It was Jungkook behind my eyes and behind my smile.

I chuckled, causing him to look up from the screen.

"What?"

I held up my hands, shaking them as to wave away his confusion. "I just thought it's funny to see myself respond to me. It's weird to even say that out loud."

He chuckled. "I understand exactly what you mean. I just had that same thought; wow, I kinda look intense with hair dripping above curious eyes."

That made me frown. "You mean, I look hot?"

"Well, yes." A blush formed instantly on his cheeks at his confession.

We looked at each other for what felt like a minute, then both busted out in laughter.

I sat down next to him as he turned my phone's playlist off and placed the phone on the table. "I'm glad we can laugh about it, even though we're in a bit of a mess right now."