Sapphire Angel / Lucas Wong (Wong Yukhei)

Part 82 - Black Clouds

I crept inside and set down all my things by the door, locking it behind me.

The dogs greeted me but surprisingly kept quiet, and I quickly let them outside to enjoy the nice night and also, to sneak upstairs.

My heart was permanently broken, and by that, I mean that no matter what I do, I worry like I used to. I still look for any red flags and search for the same evidence Vince would leave behind. Lucas had never done anything to hurt me, yet here I am sneaking up the stairs, thinking I'll catch him doing something.

'You're being so psycho.' I said to myself.

But all my fears came to life when I reached the top and saw a light on in our bedroom.

'No.' I thought. 'Maybe he left it on by accident?'

I approached silently and saw him sitting on the bed with his back to me.

'What is he doing?'

An audible sniffle could be heard, and his forearm raised to wipe his face. He let out a loud sigh.

'He's .... crying?' I was sent further into my confusion.

I made a quick little noise, bumping my elbow into the doorway and sure enough, he reached over and turned the lamp off on his end table, and proceeded to pretend to be asleep.

My heart sank. This is it.

My voice was shaky as I called, "Lucas?"

No reply.

'So much for keeping calm,' I thought as my eyes were already growing watery.

"Are you awake?" Again, nothing.

Now he's deceiving me? What has this come to?

I took a deep breath, my heart pounding in my chest as I got myself into bed.

I knew he was awake. He knew I was here and could hear me.

I thought for a while about what I should say or ask. Eventually I grew the courage and uttered exactly what was on my mind.

"Lucas ... are you regretting your choice?"

Nothing.

"I know you're awake." I decided to confront him.

'He's not Vince.' I continued to repeat as I looked down at the ring on my finger to search for a moment of comfort.

He rolled over sleepily and mumbled like he was just waking up.

"I know it's just sleeping but ... please don't lie to me, Lucas."

His eyes shot open, and he looked at me oddly.

"You mean like you pretended to sleep to see me naked on my ship?" He halfway joked.

This caught me by surprise, knowing he heard what I had already asked before.

"I didn't see-" I stopped myself. Now's not the time to explain something that happened a year ago when we first met.

"I would really appreciate you answering my question..." I asked politely, terrified of what he might say.

"Yes, Zeda. I regret this. All of this. You offer me nothing and I serve you your every need. I want to be with Biyu." I imagined him saying. Knowing his voice so well I could hear the words fluently in my head.

I had sat up at night a few times on my phone looking at Biyu's profile. I still couldn't fathom how he chose me over her. I truly do bring nothing to the table except my love and loyalty. She was so seemingly perfect. Aside from her outburst when Lucas proposed, she seemed so well put together. Her reaction was warranted, I didn't think of her as crazy or out of her mind for it. I guarantee I would have done the same, if not worse.