I Trusted You

Chapter 86.

Jasleena

We sat at the dining table and ate our dinner. As I washed dishes Luka went behind me. "Ready for our parents? And this whole weekend?" I shrugged. "I mean I guess so. I kind of just want it to be over with. I love our parents but I don't even know who they invited. I know they knew I didn't want many people but I don't know. I honestly just hope it's just our families and closest friends only. I can't do the extra people. My moods are weird and I just want it to be simple and just feel the love for our baby girl." He smiled and nodded. "I agree. It'll be lovely don't worry." I nodded and turned off the sink, since I was done.

We were quiet for a bit. Then it struck me, it was the perfect time to talk to him about temporarily staying home after Lila was born. But how would I start? I questioned myself. I was nervous. I didn't know what to expect. If he'd be ok with it. Or if he'd think I just wanted to kick back and just not work. "Hey Luka?" I finally spoke up and now nothing could really interrupt this conversation. He looked at me, "Yes?" I didn't know how to start. He noticed my hesitation and held my hand. "What's going on Lily? You ok? Is Lila ok?" I giggled. "Yes we are ok. But I was wondering about maternity leave..." he looked at me oddly. "What about it love?" I sighed. "Well, I was wondering if I could just stay home for the first 5 months? Until the new year? I can save everything I get from maternity leave and use that to help pay for things when it's due. But I want to stay with Lila until she's a little bigger, than have your old nanny watch her. I want to enjoy being her mom and learning everything I need to learn about her. I can-" I was rambling. "Lily." I didn't hear him. "Always have the house clean. Dinner-" I continued rambling. "Leena." I still spoke over him calling my name. "Everything will be-" And finally I heard him. "Jasleena!" I stopped and just stared at him wide eyed. "I'm sorry but I called you three times and you continued and didn't even notice." I nodded. "Lily it's ok if you want to stay home for the first few months. I would've agreed even if you wanted to stay home with her for the first year. Whatever makes you and Lila happy, makes me happy." I was crying, stupid hormones. How did I get so lucky? Luka was definitely a gift from God.