I Trusted You

Chapter 102.

Jasleena

About twenty minutes later, they went into the kitchen. "Hey. Are you guys hungry?" Luka asked. Paola nodded. "Hey man and sure. That drive was a little intense." Luka nodded and went into the fridge. Took out some cold cuts and mayo. Grabbed the bread and was about to make them sandwiches. "Just cheese on mine please." Since when did Paola not eat cold cuts? Those were our go to... I brushed it off. Luka nodded and continued with the sandwiches. He made some for us as well and pulled out a couple bags of chips. We began eating our lunch and suddenly, Paola just stopped. "Leena, can we talk? Just us." She wasn't looking at me. She got up before I could even answer and headed to the patio. It was a bit cold so I grabbed my sweater that was on the coat hanger.

Out on the patio, she was just sitting there, staring into the yard. I sat next to her. "What's going on?" She was so hesitant. "Leena..." I grabbed her hand in comfort. "Leena... I..." I just wasn't understanding why it was so hard for her to tell me whatever it is? "What is it, Paola? Come on, you know you can tell me anything." Her eyes were glossy with tears. "I'm pregnant." I froze. My hand was still holding hers, but I was completely frozen. I couldn't speak. I didn't know what to feel. I wanted to be happy for her. But I was so hurt. I wanted to jump up in excitement because she deserved it. But of course there was all the negativity smacking me up. She was telling me something I could never tell her again. Something that at the age of twenty one I lost. I lost the chance to ever have a baby. I felt the hot tears pouring out my eyes. "I'm sorry Leena." I cried harder because why would she be apologizing for something that she has no control over. Why would she apologize for her happiness? I shook my head no but couldn't stop crying. She went to get up to walk back in the house, but I stopped her. "I'm sorry, Paola. I am happy for you... It just brought up a lot of feelings. I'll be ok." And I let her go. She nodded and went inside. I sat there and cried some more. I wanted nothing but to be super excited for her. After all she had gone through. But I still had things I went through. Right at this moment I didn't want another baby, but within the next year or two I did. And I can't, that really hurts...