I Trusted You

Chapter 80.

Luka

I arrived at the hospital and rushed to grab Lily. I run into the hospital and they start asking so many questions. "Please just check her please." Is all I kept repeating. Lily simply looked at everyone confused for a bit. "I'll handle any information you all need. I'm her mother." I looked at her in relief. They brung a stretcher and I laid her on it. I followed them. "We are headed to the fifth floor." Lily nodded and I simply just followed them. My mind was at a million. She's thirty three weeks today. Our little Lila. I was just hoping and praying everything would be ok. They placed us in a cubicle and started hooking up the baby monitor to keep an eye on Lila's heartbeat. They questioned what happened and she lightly explained without too much detail. The nurse who was hooking her up shook her head. "Stress isn't good for you or the baby." Lily simply nodded. "The doctor will be in shortly." We simply nodded.

Once it was just us in the room she spoke. "Thank you." She was crying. I got up and went to hug her. But she lifted her arm up, stopping me. "Lily..." I tried speaking to her. "Don't Luka. No more lies ok." I was so confused. What lies? I've never lied. "Lily, what are you talking about? I've never lied. What you walked into was not what you thought. She threw herself on me and that's exactly when you walked in. You didn't even let me explain anything, you just left. Then thank God I came to see you because if he would have laid a finger on you Jasleena I would be in jail. Why would I ever lie to you? How many times do I have to tell you, you are the only female I want. You are the mother to my daughter. Jasleena, I get you went through a lot but you can't keep assuming I'm Jacob. Or that I would ever do anything that he's done to you. It's hurtful that you even think about it. But I try to understand as best as I can. I try to show you that I'm not like him. I try but it doesn't change your mind does it?" I shook my head and stopped talking because I knew I would only make her feel worse which wasn't what i wanted. But I was also tired of being compared to the man I dislike the most in this world. Hearing Lila's heartbeat calmed me a bit. "I need to step out." I heard her call out my name but I continued walking.

I needed air. I needed to calm completely down. Because, when we are angry we say hurtful things. And I couldn't do that to her. I didn't leave the hospital. I simply went to the cafeteria. I got a tea to see if that also helped me calm down. I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I didn't want her to cry. I didn't want her to stress but I also had feelings. I also hurt. I also cried. I loved her. I truly did. She needed to realize it.