I Trusted You

Chapter 12.

Jasleena

She's pregnant... My best friend is pregnant and I'm not even excited. Who is the father... Could it be? Could Yaz have been right...? Could Jacob be the father? Whenever Jacob would hang up saying he had things to do and I'd call Paola and she also couldn't talk... They hung out together... alone... while I was out of town... He was supposed to come alone... and he brought her... I was so stupid... I thought they would never do something like this to me and I just simply ignored every sign. They both were acting weird for some time...

So all that time... I was going to give myself to him... I was ready to give him my all... I was ready to start a life with him. I was ready to test this new home out and hoped he'd eventually love it and move in with me. I had so much hope for so much that would have never happened. He gave me hope for a relationship he knew, to him, had already ended. He couldn't even be man enough to break things off with me whenever he had started messing with Paola...

And Paola... I can't even describe the feeling that was wrapping me whole, knowing she could do this to me. She knew I loved him. She knew I wanted to spend forever with him. She knew I wasn't ready to have sex with him. She knew we did other sexual things but never sex. She knew that he had given me all this hope about a future with me. She knew everything and she still chose to take him from me. She still chose to betray our friendship, a friendship we've had since diapers. Because our mothers were best friends. Her mother is my Godmother and my mother is her Godmother. Yet that meant nothing to her. She chose him over me. Over our friendship. She couldn't even tell me... She just went along acting as if everything was ok in our friendship. She was being distant but she was still my best friend, I didn't think anything of it. Sometimes you just need time alone and will talk when you're ready. But I guess not.

I had left the hospital. I left them my keys so they could have gotten back to the apartment. But I couldn't be near them any longer. I needed confirmation but didn't think I was capable of handling all that just yet. I needed to get away for a bit. I had turned my phone off and went off walking. I didn't care if I got lost, I would turn my phone back on and gps to the apartment when I was ready.