I Trusted You

Chapter 26.

Jasleena

"What!?" Yup, I knew she'd be shocked. "What do you mean Jacob? Leena please explain." I sighed, "Ok ma." I started off with the assumption Yaz had, then continued with how they were both acting weird towards me but I would brush it off. Always believing they would never intentionally hurt me. I told her how he was supposed to come alone and how I wanted it to just be me and him. But he had brought Paola. I told her about the night at the bar and everything that led to finding out she was pregnant. By the time I finished I was already down the street from my mothers house. I stopped before continuing. "Leena, I'm so sorry." I sighed, "Mami, please don't do that. Don't feel sorry for me. I've already dealt with the worst parts of it all. But I was far away, so I didn't have to really deal with it the way I would tonight. I've lost myself Ma, I am so broken. But I'm trying to heal, I'm trying to be ok again, I'm trying to find myself again. My friend, Luka, He's the one who's been pushing me forward. The one who is trying to change my mindset in life right now. Even telling him I'm broken didn't push him away. Telling him the entire situation, he gave me the space I asked for yet still checked up on me. He even offered to stay on the phone with me the entire dinner for comfort and support, because he's seen how hard it's all been on me. Mami don't hate her because that isn't what I want. Maybe someday I will be ok enough to let go and forgive. But right now it's hard. I don't trust anyone. Luka reassures me often about his intentions being pure. But I still have so many doubts in my head. I'm still broken and it's still such a touchy subject." I was crying by the end of that conversation. I told her I'll see her soon. I wiped my eyes with the sleeve of my hoodie and made my way to the house.

I walked in slowly and went straight for the bedroom. Grabbed my outfit for the evening and all necessities to shower and went to the bathroom. I didn't hear anyone as I came in, neither did anyone come to me. I took a long shower, cried some more, took a few deep breaths and got out. I got myself ready for dinner. But before going out there I looked in my bag for my airpods. I found them plopped one in and called Luka. A few rings later he had answered, "Hey pretty lady. How are you feeling?" I sighed, "Well, I just told my mom everything. And that kind of made me feel a bit better. I am not ready to see them... I don't even know if she's having him come." It was his turn to sigh, "I'll be right here through it all Lily, ok?" I smiled, "Ok. Thank you Luka." He chuckled, "Anytime." With that I finally got the nerve to head out of the room.