Collision || Lee Know

complications

I stared at the small note Minho has secretly given me in the hallway before school started.

Meet me at exactly 11:50 in room 165

So this will be our way of getting to see each other now? I lifted my vision at the clock. 11:47.. Should I really participate in this? I raised my hand. "I'm sorry, can I go to the restroom real quick?" He nodded me off as I placed both hands on the desk, slowly getting up.

I entered the room, looking around. "Hi," he immediately spoke up, sitting on top of a desk. "Hi," I quietly responded, closing the door. "We don't have much time, right?" I mumbled, checking the time on my phone. "I don't like this either.. But we can still meet in breaks though, also-" I interrupted him. "I thought about this again," I started. "I don't like this idea at all. Of course, I wanna be with you badly, but just think about this whole thing clearly, please. Do you really see a good future for us? Think about how I feel about this. I know I'm not wanted in your family, neither your genes. I don't feel welcomed and having to do it secretly..just feels not healthy to me. I wanna be in a happy relationship with you, in an open one, not this," I calmly explained. He bit his upper lip, giving me a guilty look.

He stood up, approaching me. "Sorry." I looked up to him. "What are you sorry for?" I asked. "That you aren't wished for in my family.. That it all had to come this way and also for my behaviour towards you. I also wanna be open with you and if I could, I'd definitely would run away from home...I don't want any of these things that I'm forced to do. But..." I felt like he couldn't find the proper words, so I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him into a hug. "I can't give you what you want, even though I look like it...I can't offer anything at all." I immediately backed off. "What are you saying? You can offer a lot that a person would search for in you. You gave me everything you had, that's truly enough. This isn't because of you." I've never seen his eyes looking more lovable at me. They seemed like they were basically sparkling...but also like the last hope got taken down.
What now? I had no idea.

His hands, which were still holding my shoulders, slid down. "It's alright," he told me. Ugh, don't be too soft... He was right, I'd rather let him go with a bad impression, than with this one. It makes it even harder for me. I couldn't prevent me cuddling against him again as I laid my head onto his chest, listening to his heartbeat speeding up. He carefully returned my action, patting my back. I felt him placing a kiss on top my hair. Never I thought I'd like a boy this much honestly, he truly was someone special.

If only she knew I couldn't get through this without her. If only she knew that I'm praying for her to still stay with me.

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So now we were nothing at all? Will I be satisfied with my decision? Maybe not, but I know it was the right one though.. Secretly dating really doesn't seem like an option. I put my bag over my shoulder, making my way to head out.
Wait..why is Akari talking with Minho? I stopped my steps, noticing how she was basically scolding him. He just argued back. What is this hate they have towards each other? Before it could possible escalate, I grabbed her hand. "What is it?" They both faced me. "He's not cooperating," she complained. "What?" I tilted my head confused at her statement. "You said you were secretly dating. Why is he denying and he won't even explain a bit." I wanted to cry. Why would she just approach him because of that?

"Listen Akari, it's not that...we just." I locked eyes with him. "We...", "we don't know yet," Minho responded. "We don't?" I blinked several times. "So literally stop including yourself in our relationship." With that, he left. We don't know..."You don't know? What happened again?" Without going further into this conversation, I left as well.

Next day

Really, how do I face him now? In which way are we talking to each other now, or maybe not at all? I need my mind to just shut up asking myself questions I couldn't even answer myself. I bumbed into someone's shoulders, even though I'm usually not that unaware of surroundings. "Sorry." I turned around, only to see him sigh. "You could fall if you don't pay attention, hm? Where is your mind at, Taerim?" I slightly frowned at the comment. "Sorry?" I tilted my head. His gaze went past me as he excused himself. I instantly turned around to spot him meeting up with some guys. "What's that?" Two girls at the side started to whisper something, but soon turned quiet as I faced them. You may think they don't care anymore, but they just do it secretly. "They always talk." It suddenly spoke up behind me. "Ah Ji-hu, hi." We haven't talked for a while. "Hey, how are you doing?" He started walking along with me. "Uh me? Fine I guess," I responded. "Well, the last time we talked, I got rejected, so I thought it would be quite embarrassing to face you right after." I chuckled weakly. "Sorry about that", "It's fine. At least I wasn't the only one who didn't get accepted." He threw a side eye at Minho while walking by. But I just gave him one in return. "Hm? Oh, sorry, I shouldn't say such things." He laughed it off. "I'll go to class now," I told him, wanting to end this conversation as quick as possible. "Oh, sure."