Collision || Lee Know

The love never left

"Where is he?" I approached my mother as she still chatted with her closest friends left. The rest have gone by now already. Better this way, I was getting pretty late anyway. "Seo-ha? He's wasted. He fell asleep on the couch as I brought him there." I slowly nodded. "Hey, you should talk to him tomorrow," she held onto my wrist. "I guess he must be really upset." I weakly scoffed. "Right." I didn't even know if I should be mad or whether sorry. What he said was unreasonable, but yet he was frustrated. He was clearly caring about me, but still took care of something he isn't supposed to.

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I entered my room again, quietly closing the door behind me. He was basically knocked out and I'll give him that. "Min?" No answer. I guess he must have really drifted off into a deep sleep on my bed. I sighed, rummaging out a blanket for the floor and another one to cover me. I didn't mind it. After all, I was just glad he slept finally. "Aren't you uncomfortable?" I fastly opened my eyes again, seeing him looking down to me. "You're not sleeping?" I supported myself on my elbows. "I was, but woke up." I weakly smiled. "You should continue. Don't mind me." He suddenly sat up, rubbing his forehead with an eye squeeze. "You're having a headache?" I questioned, lifting myself fully up as well. "A bit. I'll manage. You should sleep up here instead. I can just head back." I fastly stood up, placing my hand on his shoulder. "You stupid? You're literally drunk. I won't let you leave like this. Also, I want you to sleep properly. So stay in my bed. I don't mind it, really." He looked up to me with the prettiest eyes ever. The moonlight shining through my window was nothing to the univers his eyes held. "Just stay," I quietly spoke. He lowered his head, giving in. "I'll get you a water." Before I could leave, he gently held onto my hand. I turned back around, waiting for him to reason. "Just.. Stay with me for the night." I fastly blinked, tilting my head. "I mean the bed. Don't sleep on the floor." I bit my upper lip, slowly nodding. "If you don't mind." I hesitately sat down on the edge, watching him scoop over. "How could I mind? It's yours." Our shoulders touched as I sat beside him. I scanned the slightly lighted up room before I noticed him placing the blanket over me. "It's freezing in here and you're even just wearing shorts," he spoke. "I wasn't cold at all." I pulled some over him as well, causing one leg of mine to be exposed again. "No, forget it." Has this blanket always been that small? We used to fit perfectly underneath it.. "Maybe we should.. Get closer," he suggested. I bit the inside of my cheek, forcing my body not to tense. I ignored the fact that I could perfectly just take the blanket laying on the floor. We both leaned back, resting our head onto the pillows. There was silence. "Today," I began. "You've said lots of things.." I wanted to mention. No, I had to. "Something like 'mother' to my mom. You also claimed I am your girlfriend. Then.. Can I ask what we are now?" I turned towards him, who stared at the ceiling. "Can I first tell you what I want to be?" He questioned. "I want to be your boyfriend and I want you to be my girlfriend. But do you think that it could happen.. Now? I don't mean my state. Regardless of what I've told you, I want to be with you anyway and I might just admit that now that I'm not fully by my senses. I'll go again after new years and then we'd have to wait again and again. I'm just.. So tired of it. I want a happy relationship and not this. It hurts everytime as if I said bye forever. There always is a fear of separation between us. That's also the reason I just won't get along with Seo-ha. I'm still at that spot where I hate him for being someone I couldn't be all that time and probably so on once I leave again." I turned onto my side, facing his side profile. I kept silent for a moment, simply letting the view sink in. After he didn't hear any response, he turned towards me. "You're pretty," I whispered, letting my finger glide over his features. "From your eyebrows, to your eyes, nose and down to your lips. Did you know that?" He weakly smile, turning onto his side as well. "Why are you telling me that now?" He questioned. "I just let my thoughts speak out. You let yours, so I will let mine as well." His eyes held a hint of pain, yet affection in them. His warm hand slid underneath my shirt, resting on my sides. He couldn't even know how much I missed that touch from him. On the other hand, he always was aware of what I loved him doing. "You're prettier. From your hair down to your toes." I weirdly glanced at him before chuckling. "What? Did you perhaps lose the ability to flirt?" He weakly laughed, switching in between my eyes. "Did you not like it? Don't you say you're pretty from head to toe?" I slowly nodded. "Well, yeah. But still." He slightly closed his eyes. "But I don't only find your face pretty, but everything about you," he quietly spoke. "Even my toes?" I asked, hardly containing my laugh. He was slowly drifting off though. "Even them." I snorted, gently coming closer to close the gab between us.