Collision || Lee Know

swallowed past

2 months later

"I could really get used to doing this with you," Akari spoke while we got our nails done. "Next time when you're richer, sponsor me for it." I scoffed, shaking my head. "Hey, I'm glad I can afford this right now." She went with a pretty design. Meanwhile, I just got them naturally done. It's what I have been asked to do. These past weeks, I've totally been against posting anything on Instagram, which includes any advertising about myself as a person who now takes part in photoshoots. I'm honest; I've been keeping it a secret from Minho and I couldn't feel worse. I was until now only taking parts in small projects anyway, but Mrs. Lee was convinced to get me into their own brand from one day to another. I was going to film short clips for an add and I couldn't feel more uneasy. My follower number increased and people were asking if I'd be shown for purity again. The thing was, normally she'd hire famous people, but the demand for me was increasing. I had to tell Minho, there was no way I could escape it..He told me he isn't on social media these days, only to watch ridiculous videos and send me those afterwards so we could laugh, but nothing more. It means he was probably clueless about everything until now. I was nervous to tell the person I love the most the truth..I felt like a horrible girlfriend if honest. I'll definitely understand if he gets mad.
"Are you totally off?" I snapped back, noticing Akaris weird glance into me. "Huh?" She sighed. "Should we watch a movie afterwards? In the movie theater, you know?" I blinked fastly. "Movie? Uh, sure. Which one?" I asked. "Taerim?" I heard someone question, so I fastly turned around.

"What are you doing here?" Mi-ra pronounced the 'you' the most, knowing I was probably the last person she'd expect here. "Living, breathing," I responded. I was in literal shook when she ignored me for the first weeks, but she just couldn't hold herself back from sometimes just giving me weird comments. At the end no matter how much Minho wanted her to leave me alone, she absolutely hated the fact that I took him from her. "Hey, you know.. When you're now getting more recognised, you gotta work on your attitude more," she commented. "I'm usually really nice, just not if the other person is disrespectful," I judged. "Come on, there is literally always something bothering you about anyone. You always have something to complain about.. even if I'd be nice. You don't even value the best person you have enough." Was she telling me she could do better? Treat him better? I doubt so, she had a chance but didn't use it. "You weren't better. If so, he'd still be by your side." She offended looked me up and down. "Just wait...because you're on your way to be become exact the same and you know, he really hates those kind of persons. That's why he picked you; he thought you were different, but in real life-" I stood up, knowing my nails were just getting finished in the exact second. "Shut up talking. I'm never gonna be like you. Being on a socially same league, doesn't mean I have to take advantage of my name. I'm not living under it, that's what's gonna make me so different from you. I don't look down on people who are below me, knowing exactly how they feel. You always were rich, preferred and noticed.. You don't know what's it like." She gazed at me before chuckling. "You want me to pity them? Feel sorry? I never will," she spoke. "Exactly, that's why no one likes you. At this point more people already picked my side than yours..and I'm not talking about any social media followers who don't even know your real self. I never harmed someone who didn't deserve it meanwhile you did." She chewed the inside of her cheeks. "You don't know half of the stor-" I interrupted her. "Impress him by it? By bullying? Believe me, that's something you only do when you're extremely stupid. I'll never understand your intentions. So don't believe you're something better from now on. Your name has nothing you could flex with...really not." I disgusted glanced at her before going past her. Akari hurried after me, watching me pay.

"Taerim," Akari spoke up as soon as we reached the outside. "Are you alright?" I stopped my steps, not expecting such sincere concern from her. "I am...she's just stupid", "I mean yeah she is, but do her words really not affect you? It's shameless how she can just easily make you down like that. I'm glad you don't let it slide, but-" I cut her off. "I'm used to it, I just swallow it down. Let's not talk about it." She held onto my arm. "That's not what you should do though..swallow things. It's better if you talk about them than keeping them to yourself. They'll only drain you at the end." It was exactly what I advised Minho too and now I was behaving the exact same way. I've always been. Not wanting to talk about problems of mine and I was so stupidly mean and accused him for not telling me them. He always offered me help, also regarding to what people made me down for.. He always took my side, but I refused somehow. I think we both still need to learn a lot. But before I complain about another person, I should be in the right position to even say such things knowing I don't make the exact same mistakes. It's like relationship advices even though you've never been in one before.