Collision || Lee Know

late nights

"It was really nice, thank you." With nice I didn't only mean the food, but the words and time we shared too. I think he lifted the mood up a bit, and if I'm honest, I have no idea how he does it, yet it works.

"I'm so full, though," I held onto my stomach as he gave it a pat. "Try to keep a bit more space," he encouraged it. "Why? More food?" I questioned. "Funny, I'm talking with your stomach, and you respond," he chuckled. "Because it's a part of me." I looked him up and down. "It does not have its own ability to answer you." He looked at me like I assumed he was stupid. "However, tell me." I got back to his mention of having to keep space. "Come on." He pulled me to the left suddenly.

It was the same way doing to the beach we went earlier. What is he planning to do? Before I could question, I heard laughter and voices coming from down there. "Huh?" I saw light. Fire in a basket was on, people surrounding it. Marshmallows along with a desk filled with several drinks. Around ten people sitting on the sand with a blanket underneath and a few chairs around it too. What was this? How did Minho know about it?

He gently grabbed onto my hand and as we got closer, I could hear music playing. The audience seemed a bit older, around their mid twenties up to fifty. I even recognised the woman from earlier. "Oh, you two came," she turned towards us. "Did you plan to go here?" I turned towards him. "I suggested him to bring you along," she responded. "Oh, I see", "wait, why don't you sit down," she offered me a free chair.

"Hey," A girl greeted me. "Hello," I answered still quite confused.."I'm Anni," she told me, so I gave her a nod. "Taerim," I responded. "Pretty name. Are you here with your boyfriend?" She questioned. "Yea", "My mother probably invited you. We're here every year. My mom has the most famous café in the area and invites a lot of our most closest costumers to celebrate the anniversary of our opening," she explained. "Oh, I see. But we aren't even costumers." I let our a soft chuckle. "Doesn't matter, everyone's welcomed as long as they stick to good mood. I mean we're quite noticeable here anyway", "Sort of." I saw Minho sitting down onto the sand beside me. "Wait, sit here." I immediately stood up, but his hand grabbed onto my wrist and pulled me back to sit. "You're gonna get dirty." I was taken aback by his concern. "So do you now, I don't even wanna know how much those pants are worthy," I mumbled the last part. "Hey, you can sit here." Another man around the end of twenty offered, who had shared the blanket with two other people. "Ah, that's my boyfriend," Anni explained. Minho hesitantly got up, looking like he wasn't ready to leave my side.

"You also want a beer?" Minho's jaw clenched, looking at the alcohol before denying, "I'm good, thanks." It's weird.. It was like he couldn't even look at it. I assume because the last time he took the offer, he ended up regretting it a lot.

"You know, I'm quite glad I have younger company now," Anni spoke up, making me turn towards her. "I'm always the youngest here. Everyone here acts young and is amusing, but still," I huffed a bit. "It's not like I'm really entertaining though," I told her. "That's okay. In that case I get to talk a lot. Sometimes I need some people around me who just listen and nod too." I formed a smile. I'm usually talking a lot too, weirdly I see me change a lot these days though. I seem to become more quiet, or mostly softer. I tend to get emotional easily and can't brush comments off that easy either. Is it because a lot of things happened? I assume in my relationship towards Minho mostly. I feel like me turning him softer and honest, also made me change up in that case. I didn't know if I liked it though.
But I wasn't only changing in that way, but also started to live life more fully and happily. I see myself basically giggling or blushing since I spend time with him. I never thought I'd even behave this way, by the fact that I thought doing this was absolutely pathetic. Caring for a person and laughing with one suddenly seemed so refreshing, like a new vibe or start. I still had to figure out where it would head to though. Every time we meet, a new emotion gets unlocked in me and sadly not every of those are the ones I want to feel, but the mostly feelings I hope to expierence for the rest of my life. Thanks to him I finally was able to try something new, but also risky. Views of things and mostly myself changed a lot. I figured out that I could see myself as so much more than I thought I was. That I actually was lovable and that I wasn't as alone as I thought I would always be. I had the same chances to expirence every high school life like the others did. I found out that people's intentions can be so much different than you expect once you give yourself the chance to see them. Seeing that there are other point of views than your own ones, which seem to see things from a complete different way. Figuring out that not only my life was shitty and figuring out that not every one has to see bad sides of you just because you do. That counted for everybody who suddenly picked my side and stood up for me, when I almost got convinced I was alone. Just now, I started to realise that I actually should be happy right now. I, in fact, have nothing to complain about.