Collision || Lee Know

hope

Taerims POV

"I love you" My whole stomach pulled itself together at the sudden confession. The sudden goosebumps over my whole skin proved how much hearing those words affected me. 
"W-what?" He remained silent for a moment. "You, you can't just say that without thinking. I mean how can you..No, why would you..No, what made you love.." I stopped, quietly adding, "me?" He started to blink fastly. "What do you mean with how and why? I didn't say that because it was meaningless. I said it because it's true." I couldn't get any word out. Why was it so hard to believe somehow? "Did you think dating you wouldn't make me end up falling in love? I don't just like you... That's the problem. If it would've been that, I wouldn't be so convinced to be with you. I've told you often of how I felt... I never felt like that with anyone. Really, no one. I don't think such strong emotion can be defined as just 'liking you' " I felt everything right now...Way too much to just form it into a proper sentence. Well maybe it would be I love you too.. Maybe not, I couldn't tell. The only thing I could be convinced of, was that I wanted to be with him as much as he wanted it...so that means I returned such feelings? Just why is it so hard getting over him?

"You don't need to say anything. I know it's not gonna work out from your side," he leaned back, facing the front.
"I do too." That just somehow came out by staring at him. No one could ever see me the way he does..see so many things in me like he does. "Huh?", "I think I love.." I turned quiet. "Stop. Don't force to say such thing." It wasn't that I didn't want to say it...I was just too scared of what could happen if I admitted it. I suddenly avoided his eyes, looking everywhere but him. He threw me way too off guard.

I nodded, just fidgeting with my hands. "I'll go now. It might get too late," he told me, standing up obviously noticing my awkwardness. I looked after him...firstly I saw him as a litetal sedusive being..I thought he couldn't be real. Flawless, no mistakes and never ever is serious in anything he does. I thought behind those eyes was only evil intentions planned out to the very last...but it turned out how beautiful he can be. The eyes held more stars than I thought a human could have...A more fragile person than I thought I could ever see. Someone who had everything hidden perfectly, a flawless show he's showing the rest..but after all, he wasn't at all like that. He's selfish, but cares. Jealous, but protective. Weird, but funny. Stupid, but smart at the same time. Over and all perfect. He can pull off anything you want him to. Anything you searched. For some people it's all faked and acted and I am the one who all has it basically too close to grab...Only I have the chance given to me. But it turned out that dating the firstly perfect Minho, would mean you have to deal with anything else that involves him. He's lovable and once you do it's too hard to let him go again. That's the literal curse..but it's fine, after all, I let myself in this. I'm the too scared one this time, and I was never afraid of anything. Just why am I now? What makes me stop from doing what I want, like usual? Am I getting too worried for myself? Why do I care? I should be happy that someone likes me. No, loves me.. Am I too scared I might not be worth it to love? Too scared he might not want me once he says it out loud?

"Are you going home now?" I made him stop. "Mhm," he hummed in response. "Will you be okay?" I questioned. "I'll have to. My girlfriend told me what to do." He referred to what advice I thought his girlfriend would give him, knowing damn well I was talking about my own opinion.

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"What's up here? You look like you're in your thoughts for the whole day." My mom entered the room, closing the door behind her. "Me? No, I'm good," I told her, so she turned around again. "Mom, has anyone ever told you they love you even though you know you shouldn't return such feelings because it would only cause trouble?" She blinked a few times at my sudden waterfall of words. "Did he tell you that? Didn't he break your heart? What happened now?" She sat down beside me as I sighed. "Well a lot of things happened.. Eventually it was all a bit complicated to explain, but we aren't actually hating on each other." I rubbed my face, unsure how to find proper words. "I knew he wasn't a bad one," she said. "Well no..he's not. But I just don't think it'll work out with us the way I want it to because our lifes are too different," I explained, receiving a nod of understanding from her. "You know, you may not believe it, but I used to think the same way." I faced her weirdly. "With dad? But wasn't he poor too?" She gave me a blank stare as I immediately apologised. "Not with your father. I used to date someone else too, you know. I was quite famous in high school because I always hated the fact that I couldn't earn too much as well...I just didn't live under that motto, neither did people know. Well whatever, there was this super popular guy in school and we eventually ended up confessing to each other. He knew I wasn't rich and of course his family wouldn't accept me as a person.." I started to listen carefully. "He told me that it wouldn't be a good idea to continue such thing, meanwhile I was fighting for it. I may have been stupid, but I liked him way too much." I tilted my head "and?", "Well since he was so sure it would not work out, it ended up lasting for one more year. But I'm sure that if the both of us would've burnt for it, it could've been a much bigger thing with us,"she told me. "If you really like someone, such things don't bother you. Yeah well you may end up being hurt, but who cares? At least you don't regret." I blinked a few times. "If he really makes you happy, you will keep finding together. It will work. I believe that. And if his parents don't allow that, I will have a word with them." I started to smile. "What's that mom?" I chuckled. "Now tell me.. Do you love him too?" I turned serious again. "I think, I do," I responded. "Then tell him that, but don't stress yourself. Because you know there's no going back once you say such thing." I nodded. "I know."

Minhos POV

I sat there quietly as my parents took a seat across, followed by Hana sitting down beside me. Whatever she had to do with this...I stretched my neck and threw a glance over at the clock. "I've heard of your tests," my mom started, rubbing her forehead. She probably heard it all from my father already. "Listen...I want you to," I started to raise my head at her. "Move to Japan with Hana. She has successfully graduated here...You will have to because no university here will take you with such result. You could wait one whole year, but that's a pure waste because I know you can do it, you just didn't want to." I remained silent for a moment, seeing Hana fidgeting with her hands.

"Can't we use our money well?" I questioned as she tilted her head. "Dad can use his position well too.. Make me rewrite the last exam next week and I'll equalize the grade point average. I'm for real. I'll do well in it, giving you all the points you wanted." I lowered my vision while my jaw tensed at the words I just gave off me. "You're cooperating?" My dad questioned. "Write that I was sick...the teacher who will have to keep an eye on us while writing won't know I was there last week. I'll receive an even higher position if I get good points in this one and I can study right after," I suggested. "And why didn't you do that already? What changed your mind?" She asked me. "Taerim did...she convinced me to take your job," I spoke cleary enough, still not making eye contact. My mother first opened her mouth to say something, but closed it again. "She told me on her own that there wasn't anything going on between you two. She never was supposed to talk to you again.. You two still do?" I formed my hand into a fist, pressing my nails into my skin to keep calm. "And the fact that it happened was your fault," I mumbled quietly to myself as she raised her eyebrows. "She even insisted to keep her distance, thinking it was for the better because you kept telling her that she didn't belong to our society...I will take your Job and all, but only if you leave me freedom and let me be with her. No one will care who I date and also who decided that she can't do well on her graduation and also receive a well Job? Your assumption didn't make sense and she do is good for me, like you see...without her I wouldn't have accepted my fate." My mother's vision ended up staring towards, while my dad just shrugged. "I don't get what you see in her...but." Hope filled my eyes. "Date her and see that what I told you." I didn't want to discuss any further things about this.

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