A Journey Through Time

Intro ~ Why I'm Writing This

I want to hear God's voice in every possible way. I'm hoping that through writing down my thoughts in this book, I can feel closer to Him. And I want to write my thoughts down and not worry about what it sounds like or what it is I'm writing about.

Many times, I've struggled with figuring out what the thoughts in mind are trying to tell me. I've also struggled with with trying to figure out what I want to do in life. There have been so many moments where I've just wanted to give up on life all together.

So I want to come back to my younger self, my carefree self. I don't want to escape my reality with distractions anymore. I want to come back to that place, as a little kid, where nothing else mattered. A place where on the outside, my life was poverty and struggle, but on the inside, I was just living life freely, enjoying time with my family and myself.

Most of my childhood memories are happy ones, even though I've experienced trauma. I have memories where I'm eating ice cream with my sister on the concrete backyard patio steps in the blazing hot summer or swimming in the pool with my eyes open during summer camp in elementary school. I was truly happy back then. I had no worries. At the time, I couldn't wait to grow up and get older. Being a child wasn't always fun, but I had no true worries yet. I always had a childlike wonder. I always read new books and tried new arts that took me to a place nothing else could take me.

I even enjoyed learning in school and naturally became really good at it, but it eventually became the thing that I used to escape my pain as I got older. I thought that school was the only thing that I did that mattered. And it became something I hated doing but did anyway just because I had to do it.

Doing stuff I didn't want to do just became the norm so much so that I thought it was normal to just go through life and achieve without getting any true internal gain out of it.

I want to change that. I want to follow my heart and my true desires. I want to truly hear God's voice and allow Him to lead me through my life. He's the ultimate One that places those desires on my heart in the first place.

That's why I'm writing this book. I constantly journal my emotions, and each time, I try to be more and more authentic with my words, trying my best not to sugarcoat anything. So I want to transcribe my thoughts and my life in this book in a way that reveals to me who I truly am and who I am striving to be. I am not going to let fear or embarrassment stop me from just being myself and sharing my story, my journey through time.

Writing this book may not be my true calling in life, but I'm hoping that it will give me clarity. I'm also hoping that writing this book will help me tap back into that inner childlike voice.

Usually I'll journal by myself but I would end up just writing stuff and not look back at it again. This book will force me to really look at what I'm writing and help me see my life in a different way. It will also help me learn more things about myself that I never knew.

So, in writing this book, I hope that 1) this story actually makes sense and 2) that someone can be inspired by and benefit from my story, to live life freely and express emotions freely in order to find that peace we all strive for. We'll see how far I go with this and how long this will take me. But in the meantime I hope you enjoy this story.

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