A Journey Through Time

Chapter 48 ~ My Crazy Dream

I dreamt that my boss was my dad.

I dreamt that I met my old cat who could talk for some reason after all these years. She rejected me and I was crying. She wanted nothing to do with me.

I dreamt that I was hugging my boss dad and holding onto him so tightly. When my cat rejected me, it made me think of my dad. It wasn't my fault that me and my family had to leave my cat behind. Then it made me think whether or not it was my dad's fault he had to leave. All this time I would assume that it was his fault. But with that realization and perspective, being completely devastated, it just made me question everything. It made me latch onto my boss dad because I guess he's like a father figure to me in my head.

My dad left such a long time ago, so a lot of me is already healed from that trauma, but those kinda dreams make me feel like I'm probably not all the way healed. That I still long for some kind of father in my life. I wanted to write this down because at first I didn't think much of the dream but then when I was breaking it down, everything dawned on me. I cried a lot in the dream and it was really heavy for me. It was insane. So much stuff was happening at the same time, but that was the overall message, twisted and all. That I still longed for that father figure. And I longed for a real authentic hug from him.

So I wanted to write down my crazy dream so I wouldn't forget it.