I need to know myself and what I want and need. The biggest reason I've been feeling the way I felt is because I haven't been living for me. I've been living in fear of disappointing my family. I need to look at each aspect of my life and determine what it is I want for myself in each of those categories. Then I need to write a list of tasks for each goal I come up with and sort them tasks I can do everyday.
I'm motivated when I'm creating work that I'm proud of, solving complex problems and seeing the outcome of those solutions. When I see problems in my own life or in the lives of others, I feel fulfilled when I'm able to solve them, even when it's hard. Deep down I feel like every problem has a solution.
When I find meaning and purpose in my work, I know that's when I'll feel good about myself.
For example, when it came to my loneliness issues, I had to visualize me having amazing friendships, as if the problem has already been solved. Seeing things that way made me believe that there was a solution, which gave me the brainpower to sit down and write down a realistic solution to the problem. When it came to friendship, what I did to get there was solely on me. I took ownership of my life. I didn't join groups for anyone else but myself. But I needed that concrete vision of me having amazing friends in the first place. I need to create a concrete vision of the life I want to live.
These are important actions I'm taking as I go through this process:
1) Brain dumping when I'm stressed.
2) Listening to my intuition. What do I have the most energy for? What naturally makes me come alive? What do I want out of life?
3) Living my life without caring about what other people think.
4) Understanding what is within my control and what is outside of your control.
5) Taking a social media detox and taking more control of your energy and attention.
6) Making time to have fun.
These are the aspects of self care that I want to prioritize:
1) Intellectual
2) Occupational
3) Physical
4) Emotional
5) Environmental
6) Social
7) Spiritual
8) Financial
I'll go more in depth with this in the next chapter. I'm proud of myself when I see the result of me not giving up on myself and pushing through challenging obstacles.
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