A Journey Through Time

Chapter 76 - Being

I've talked about following my tuition a lot, but following intuitions mostly means just doing things.

I haven't considered just allowing things to be. Doing what I want in the moment but also sitting in silence, or accepting the state of where things are right now.

I don't have a lot of things to do technically. Yeah I have work and chores and a few weekly and monthly goals, but outside of those things, I have a lot of free time. I'm gonna have periods where there's just nothing to do. And I can't be hard on myself for trying to do things when there isn't anything to do. I'm free I guess to just do nothing sometimes.

I can just be and enjoy things and not feel bad about it. I always take care of all of my responsibilities. But I finally have a life instead of it just being school, or just being a certain person. Sometimes life revolves around specific aspects, but it's unhealthy when life is unbalanced.

My life is fluid. Sometimes I have a lot of work to do. Sometimes it's mostly time spent with family. Sometimes it's mostly time spent with friends. For a while it was mostly time spent in school and with my emotions. Now my life revolves around reading, which is one of my many my mini goals, work, family, and friends. My life will be diverse but also have a lot of gaps of nothing. And there's nothing wrong with that. I can't constantly be doing things all the time.