My life unscripted.
"I so badly want to unlock the person I really am, and not just continue living as the person resulted from the traumas and histories of my past." - A Journey Through Time
"I'm just in this unsatisfying in between, where I'm alwa...
I've learned that I'm not alone. I need to develop a real relationship with You and my family, especially my mom, otherwise I'm going be going around in circles.
I also learned that life is going to be hard all the time, and sometimes there are problems I just can't fix and I have to ok with that, or at least find peace in the storm before a solution eventually comes along. I have to embrace the challenges of life.
Lastly I've learned that my family loves me. I already know this, but a reminder like this helps me feel more comfortable telling them how I feel.
What has happened so far?
I told my mom how I felt and she respected my crying, she told me how she felt when she was my age, and she helped me come up with things I could do to establish my independence. She reaffirmed that my income was helping.
I scheduled an appointment to get my permit, so I need to study for my written test.
I scheduled an appointment to set my checking account.
I scheduled time with my sister to watch a comedy show together.
I still need to scheduled my eye doctor and my lab work.
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I may not achieve a sense of responsibility or financial independence yet, but I can at least begin to make my own decisions about every aspect of my life. There's not much that I do outside of work and family time. But I shouldn't be afraid to pursue something I want. Even if I ask for something or pursue something and I can't get it, I can't be mad for at least trying. There's things I may want as an adult that I can't have. But that may just be because I don't need those things right now. I know You'll provide me with things when the time is right.
I want to be physically healthier, intellectually stimulated, spiritually healthy, socially healthy, and emotionally well. I also wanna be occupationally satisfied. I can achieve all of those things without fully advancing into a complete adult. I can start small with workouts and stretches. I can always learn something new using my phone. I can talk to God more, reach out to my friends more, and journal more for my emotional health. I just have to be committed to the small things. The small actions can add up to what it is I truly want.
