A part of me has been wanting to ground myself and find that balance within myself that I've been searching a long time for. All this time I feel like I'm constantly experiencing intense emotions, and nothing has really been stable in my life. I'm constantly discovering and rediscovering what it is that I like doing. I'm learning how to be a friend and be in relationships with different types of people. And I'm learning how to really be a person for the first time. At least a well functioning one. I've always felt like a machine, like my feelings didn't matter, and that I just was destined to suffer because I was so used to it. Even when I take a break, it's so hard for me to relax because I'm so used to working. It's easy for me to feel unproductive when I have nothing to do.
For the longest I was just figuring out what I wanted to do in life. I think now I just want to figure out who I am. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin and not be so anxious and self conscious. I want to be aligned with my life, what I want to do, and who I want to be.
A lot of feeling comfortable with myself is knowing who I am. And of course I'm constantly changing so I'm constantly going to have to learn who I am everyday. But I feel in tune and connected with myself and my life when I have a purpose driven goal. Every time I have a goal that I am working towards and determined to achieve no matter what, I feel more focused, more motivated, and more connected to who I am. Like I'm fully in the zone.
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A Journey Through Time
No FicciónMy life unscripted. "I so badly want to unlock the person I really am, and not just continue living as the person resulted from the traumas and histories of my past." - A Journey Through Time "I'm just in this unsatisfying in between, where I'm alwa...
