A Journey Through Time

Chapter 23 ~ Am I Really Done? (Also Thank You!)

It's hard for me to believe that I'm officially done. I feel like I still have work to do. Tomorrow I planned on working and looking through things to make sure I can finish everything I need to do. I don't know what it's like to be officially done with something. Usually whenever I do finish something there's always something else I need to do. It's like an unlimited amount of stress and exhaustion all the time. I still have a lot I need to think about but I also don't want to think about anything. I don't want to do anything anymore truthfully.

I didn't want to work in my college because I've been there for way too long. But now my heart doesn't want to leave. One of my friends who is still attending clearly still needs my help. There's so much work that needs to be done restoring the community I was serving alongside her as a student. It concerns me so much that I've thought about writing a blog about it. Just randomly when my mind was set on it, I created two different blog ideas. One was about restoring communities in institutions like the one I attended. And the other one is about navigating this world as a black girl in college, since that has also been my reality. It's like I had so many ideas for article titles that my brain was going to explode, and the truth is I haven't been able to utilize my creative energy as much as I would like. So I want to continue doing that. I've also decided to continue helping my friend and others who are still at the university restore the community we've been serving together this entire year while I try to look for different opportunities.

P.S. It's crazy, this is the 23rd chapter and I am the graduating class of 2023 on the day I'm writing this. I wonder what God is telling me with the number 23. According to Google, 23 can be described in one word: change. Embracing change and trusting the process. And that's actually insane how perfectly that fits with everything

Also, I wanted to say thank you to any and everyone reading my story, commenting, starring the chapters, following me, and adding my book to your library. It really means a lot to me that you all actually read my story and find some meaning in it. I never started writing this for reads or stars or anything. It just feels like the right thing to do for me right now. I've been able to get thoughts out of my head and it helps me make sense of the world around me. This book is literally changing my life, which encourages me to keep writing, even when I'm really busy. Now that I'm actually done with college, I'll have more time to write and figure my life out. I don't know if I can really do anything with this book, like selling it or just making some kind of career out of it. I don't even know if I would really call it a passion. Maybe it is a passion, I just might not understand it. Either way, I truthfully just want to see where this book takes me and where my other decisions will take me. Every choice I've made has gotten me to this point and I have not failed. If I did "fail" I wouldn't be here. Me being here is a literal miracle and of course it can be easy to forget that. So I don't want to forget it. I just want to prioritize me and my life. Anyways, thank you again for everyone who has chosen to be on this journey with me one way or another.