Crazy || Hyunlix

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Felix was already plopped on his bed, or hyunjins bed. Waiting for the older to get home, what was wrong with him all of a sudden? Waiting for him to get home? Letting hyunjin take him out for dinner.

He pouted at himself looking to the door, he couldn't believe he was this happy to see hyunjin. The two weren't dating or anything, was this all for fun?

He heard the door open, making him quickly. Look back, he stayed on the bed still, having no energy to move from his shift today. He quickly looked back too hyunjin who was standing at the door way, a chuckle when he saw Felix laying there.

"We're you waiting for me?"

"Why did you take so long?"

"I got caught up." Hyunjin stated.
He laid next to felix. Looking him in the eyes. "Are you okay?" Hyunjin asked, noticing the empty and confused look in felixs face. Felix didn't know what it felt like to be inlove, so he was confused, did hyunjin like him for his body or for him?

He'd much rather spend quality time with hyunjin eating and watching movies rather than just there sensual moments. Sure they cuddled alot and had sweet times, but he was confused. He didn't want to speak up about it. He was afraid he was right and hyunjin would leave very tragically.

"Yeah I'm fine, I'm gonna take a shower okay?" The two shared a look before Felix parted ways to take a shower. He truly just wanted to think
In his own space.

He knew hyunjin could tell there was something wrong. But he wanted Felix to tell him first rather than feeling like he was forcing a awsner to come out. Hyunjin just gave a frustrated sigh and looked back to the closed door Felix just entered.

Hyunjin stood up he couldn't let the conversation end like this. He knocked on the door, he two hasn't showered today, so why not join Felix.

"Yes?"

Felix awsnered. Hyunjin just slowly opened the door, peaking his head through to see what state Felix was in, he was obviously in the shower.

"Could I shower with you?"

Hyunjin eagerly asked.

"Yeah." Felix awsnered dully. It wasn't helping his thoughts. Hyunjin just wanted to see him naked right? He just wanted to touch his body?
"You sure? You seemed unsure." Hyunjin asked once again.

"Yeah it's fine." Felix said a little bit more enthusiasm. Hyunjin removed his excess clothes, his shirt pants and socks etc. Stepping underneath the warm water to look at Felix who was already looking him in the eyes.

"You look pretty in the shower for some reason." Hyunjin smiled, he put his wet hand gently on Felix's cheek. But Felix backed away a little.

He'd never done this before, hyunjin was slightly confused. "Sorry, I didn't know you didn't want to be touched —" He gave another short smile, but it faded when Felix's weird behavior began acting again. His eyes were looking everywhere but hyunjins face.

"Felix are you sure you're okay?"

"Yes hyunjin I'm fine, I told you that stop asking."

Felix said, the attitude reeking in his tone. Hyunjin scoffed, watching him grab his towel, ending there small conversation.

"Why did you want me to come in here if your just gonna be like that? What is bothering you?" Hyunjin yelled, he turned the shower off, grabbing his towel as well.

Felix was already dressed that quickly he must've been really annoyed. He doing his hair infront of the vanity.

"Because, I like you, and you just want me for my body."

Hyunjins mood faded, just looking at Felix from across the room. "You don't like relationships, but we act as if we are in one, you take me on dates, he act as if we are in a relationship together."

Felix just looked at the trembling looks against hyunjins face. He bit his lower lip. "Did you just want to.. play with me?" Felix asked.

"W-What? No, Felix I didn't intend on that."

"So what did you intend on doing? Because I love you hyunjin."

Hyunjins never dealt with anything like this. He's also never felt this time of dread and guilt in his body.

"I think maybe we should be apart for a couple days." Felix decided. "What?" Hyunjins never felt this vunerable, he was genuinely following Felix to his own door, attempting to get his mind back to where the two were gonna be together.

He yanked Felix back to him, looking at him before he could leave. "I don't know what else to say but I'm sorry."
Hyunjin said he was so unexperienced with things like this.
His love life has been all about sex. Nothing was pure and non toxicating about his past.

"I don't want to hear an apology, I'm not asking that we stay apart forever but I'm asking you to find out what your feelings are.. and when you do, please tell me so I can move on."

Felix yanked himself back, shutting the door behind himself, it was a harsh slam that made hyunjin flinch a little.

He couldn't loose Felix.

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